fragmentsofagirl.

Tuesday, September 29, 2009

had my family raye chalet on saturday. instead of the norm renting a bus, we rented a chalet and spent a whole day there. we had a photoshoot out in the 'garden'. hahahahaha. everybody brought juadah raya. it was awesome. but i still prefer visiting.

for pictures i took, go to my facebook photos. thank you very nice.

2:08 pm
ilovedjason

Friday, September 25, 2009

bang bang.
he shot me down.
bang bang.
i hit the ground.
bang bang.
that awful sound.
bang bang.
my baby shot me down.

if you've heard of russell peters, then you would, obviously, know the infamous, ingenious saying. 'BE A MAN. DO THE RIGHT THING!'

when you let the girl take all the heat, and you keep quiet.
when you depend on a girl financially, and hoping for more.
when you lie to a girl.
when you give a girl false hope.
when you don't own up to your mistakes.
when you cheat on a girl.

what does it say about you, as a man?
it makes you a coward.
i say, be a man.
don't sweet talk your way into a girl's heart. a girl can only take so much bullshit before she finds, yes, a better man.

12:36 am
ilovedjason

Wednesday, September 23, 2009

i feel out of touch with my friends. the only person i seem to be contacting is s. lanxi's started school. nadiah's starting work and school soon. filz's having her school break but working. my polymates? don't need to say much. all of them are busy. i miss these people. can't wait for the next 2 saturdays.

sue!! bile bole aku jumpe kau??!!!!

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impatience.
a common trait seen in alot of singaporeans. young, old. rich, poor. male, female.
i was going down the steps from an upper deck of a bus to the lower deck. since it was at a stop, people alight and boarded the bus. there was already a jam at the exit, so i was stuck at the base of the steps. and this lady, handphone on her ear, trying to squeeze her way in between me and stairs 'wall'. so me being me, i just stood there, while she attempts to squeeze through. she could've waited. there was pratically no one on the upper deck. and she was the first to board the bus from that stop. -___-"
another separate incident. (well, i've had too many of these but this one is worth telling) i was the train, getting off at tanah merah station. on that particular day, it was unbelievable busy. as the train slowed down at the station, i got ready to go out. i think i was invisible on that day because no one seemed to move after looking throught the glass panel. and when the doors opened, yes you guessed it. these people, some looked educated even, wasn't considerate enough to move one step behind. so of course, i just stood there. with the classic razi hand gesture, i stared at them. a pilot, i think it was a pilot because of his uniform, was polite enough to make way. main culprits: maids at orchard station and i'm sorry for sounding racist here, chinese people. they would RUN inside as if they're being chased by some devil.

'blindness'
some people would just pretend there wasn't anyone in the line and sashays in front of you.
at watsons a couple of months ago, i was buying a shitload of stuff. so i queued. (duh!) suddenly this nyonya stepped in front of me, as if queueing up. and i'm like 'HELLO!' then i gently tapped on her shoulder and said there was a queue behind me. and you know what she said to me?!! 'oh i thought you were looking around for something' HUH!!!!!?! i was standing there. standing still right behind the person in front of me and she said i was looking for something?!
another incident. i queued where the queue for the bubble tea was. and then there were 2 maids, lingering a few steps behind me. yes they looked like they were going to get something but they were standing 5 steps away from the stall. right before the owner took my order, one of the maids swooped in next to me, half expecting her order to be taken. like Hello!!

and my favourite!
i was in a toilet at a shopping centre. and there was a queue to go into the ladies, as always. and there was this group of tanjong katong girls huddling around the entrance, a few from that group was actually in the queue. the ones that wasn't was also in that group. i said excuse me politely, and some went out from the ladies. i was a few steps behind them and i turned and said to nadiah, in normal speaking tones, 'clever is also stupid'. and what do you know? they turned and looked at me. 'he who eats chilli, will taste the spicyness.'

well that's it for tonight. :)

12:14 am
ilovedjason

Friday, September 18, 2009

i had one of my best days today. hanging out with 2 out 3 of my close girlfriends, is good enough. having dinner with him, was awesome. a quiet bus ride made my day. a day filled with love. :)

today marks one month to my big day. bleargh. do i want to countdown? no! this year marks alot of firsts for me and him. :)

have you guys heard of the swensen's ice cream buffet?! like OMG! yummy! someone take me there for my birthday, please?

12:45 am
ilovedjason

Tuesday, September 15, 2009

if i'm a bad person, you don't like me
well i guess i'll make my own way
it's a circle, a mean cycle
i can't excite you anymore
where's your gavel? your jury?
what's my offense this time?
you're not a judge but if you're going to judge me
well sentence me to another life
don't wanna hear your sad songs
i don't wanna feel your pain
when you swear it's all my fault
cause you know we're not the same
we're not the same, oh we're not the same
the friends who stuck together
we wrote our names in blood
but i guess you can't accept that the change is good
well you treat me just like another stranger
well it's nice to meet you sir
i guess i'll go
i best be on my way out
you treat me just like another stranger
it's nice to meet you sir
i guess i'll go
i best be on my way out
IGNORANCE IS YOUR NEW BESTFRIEND
this is the best thing that could've happened
any longer and i wouldn't have made it
it's not a war no, it's not a rapture
i'm just a person but you can't take it
the same tricks that once fooled me
they won't get you anywhere
i'm not the same kid from your memory
well now i can fend for myself

i am currently hooked on this song by paramore, ignorance. it's awesome!! i decided this to be my blog entry purely for sarcastic reasons. well, i can't stray too far from my 'evil' ways right? shhhhhhhhhhh........it! okay? bye! :s

3:40 pm
ilovedjason

i broke fast today with iced lemon tea and famous amos' no nut fudge brownie. if you've had one of those, you'll probably know that it's loaded with sugar. and yes. i got high on sugar while i was at work. again. and woman, i ate the whole thing. i didn't save any for after! haha!

i hope you had a good first day, woman! :) xoxo

8months is finally here. :) goodnight sayang. i love you.

1:00 am
ilovedjason

Sunday, September 13, 2009

i wonder how important i am in your life.
but for today,
the sky cries with me.

2:17 pm
ilovedjason

Friday, September 11, 2009

-___-
this is how i'm feeling right now. i'm at lost for words yet again.

i should stay away from the cyber world and get back to reading books. it'll do my eyes a lot of good. it'll help me stay away from all the shit that has gone on. bleargh.

1:03 am
ilovedjason

Wednesday, September 09, 2009

had pastamania yet again. :) woooohoooots!

in life, i guess there are and will always be things that are just hard to fathom. it's better that we stop figuring out life and enjoy it as it is. hopefully our troubles will melt away and soon we can forget about our past. celebrate the little things in life, as it might the ones that will bring true joy. life, really is unexpected.

anonymous, you have got some balls.

1:28 am
ilovedjason

Tuesday, September 08, 2009

okay. my blogger is back to normal. :)

can you believe it that it's been 17days into Ramadhan? only 12days more. too fast. i guess i know why people are calling this month the Holy Month. it's the only month where you can pray terawih. it's the month that witnessed the descent of the Qur'an. it's the month when Laillatul Qad'ar happens. it's the only month when it's wajib to fast. it's the only month that all evil are locked away. it's the month when you do good deeds, your pahala will multiply more.

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today i found out something disturbing.

this person is an attention seeker.
this person can't see past their own truth.
this person that i knew is so contradicting.
this person would say one thing, and then another in the next minute.
this person wouldn't know that they're doing wrong, because they're blinded by their truth.
this person tries her best to by holy, but fails because this person tries too hard that it looks fake.

and i can't believe i'm saying the next few sentences, but i am. i feel sorry for this person. i feel sorry because this person incurred so much hate unto oneself. this person stepped on so many toes. this person leaves me speechless with their delusion, contradictions and attention seeking ways. i won't say 'get a load of forgiveness in this holy month' but i will pray for this person.

no, i am not that anonymous about how i feel towards this person. i've said my piece. and honestly, i'm tired of this person.

12:50 am
ilovedjason

Saturday, September 05, 2009

cadbury eyebrows, mak-mal, mal-am and laughters made my night. :)

break fast with my fave company. haig road hawker for buke. ain was disgusted with the tables. it was cramped because the original place where the man wanted to seat us, a group of underage mats decided to open table. haha. so there we were seated in front of watson's. sandwiched in between 2 groups of m&ms. on the other side, the m&ms seemed to be also still in secondary school. so i noticed this makcik and her maid and 2 strollers stopped right in front of watsons. my first thought was, it's too late to get a seat now that it's nearing to maghrib. after a few minutes chatting with syahrul and ain while waiting for the rest to arrive, a lady in black marched to minah table and shouted, 'eh p***mak kau. kau penting kan members tak ingatkan mak sendiri!' translation, (expletive) you put your friends first instead of your mother.

and the minah at the head of the table stood up and shouted back in malay, 'fine ah. i don't need to eat.' the tables which already filled with the secondary kids was soon left alone and the makcik, maid and sister sat down.

well that was the highlight before buke. :)

i don't think i'll eat at haig hawker again. food wasn't that memorable. takopachi, ayam percik completed my night. i should have bought ayam percik for syahrul too, it was awesome!!

3:12 pm
ilovedjason

Wednesday, September 02, 2009

spent the day yesterday with my girlfriends. fd4 is didn't live up to the fd expectations. the first one set the tone, and the third one was the goriest. but the 3d made it worth my while.

ramadhan has shown me different sides of people. well, i'm not going to go deeper into this because who i am to preach God's teachings. as a Muslim, i have long way to go before i can call myself a good muslim. so i guess we should look at ourselves, practice before we preach, no?

so. ramadhan. it's about bringing muslims together no? i can't wait for iftar(s) next week. to see people i've not seen in some time. maybe a mini reunion. :)

i've not stepped onto my motherland in 4months. and i'm so sad. krispy kreme has since opened. shilin taiwan snacks is now halal. my subway, sakae sushi. omg. i shouldn't be talking about food now, but the idea of eating at kl is just so tantalising.

i'm craving for shaker fries, tall white choc mocha blended coffee, mcspicy with cheese. burger ramly again, dengdeng, takopachi. and pineapple tarts.

12 days have gone. time's passing faster everyday.

4:48 pm
ilovedjason

Tuesday, September 01, 2009

Dear Miss Conscience,

it seems like i've gotten myself in hot soup. my taking a stand and being vocal in what i believe, has made me look like i'm the ultimate villian in this situation. i don't know whether to find that flattering or not. haha. you know, i'm always wary about using religion and God's name in anything i do or say. i'm always afraid that i'd do something contradicting. and i find it weird and suspicious at how some people decided to speak up only now, during ramadhan. using religion, God and ramadhan. i mean i've been blogging about this for some time and only now do they speak up? suspicious no?

and i really wonder, do their action reflect their words? i mean, they showed sensitivity to a person i care about, the same amount i would show to a fly. that's what i really hated. and to do that during a difficult time. that is just low. i really didn't care that they got together. i'm, as bryan adams said, all for love. you want to fall in love, fine. but there is something called being sensitive. and it just dawned on me, that if the situation were reversed, he would have done the same thing. just think about it.

and i really would have loved to hear their side of the story after i facebook messaged them. that was a perfect chance to tell me. but i guess i'm just like a fly to them. i would have listened with reason.

honestly, i don't hate them, just dislike. because in islam, you're not supposed to hate. so yes, my words have been full of hatred. but you know how anger blinds you? yes it's like that. am i making excuses for my actions? maybe, maybe not. maybe i really should take breathing lessons to deal with anger.

i once comtemplated to password protect my blog but after thinking about it, i thought that it was redundant. a blog is supposed to be an online journal, no? i was like, to pw.protect is the same as a lock. so why not just buy a diary with a lock and hide under your bed? right?

gosh, i've never blogged such a long entry. and i think that guys who think with their little head instead of their big head, deserves karma. ;)

peace out!
amalina

9:27 pm
ilovedjason