fragmentsofagirl.

Sunday, July 31, 2005

worry..that's the title of a country song..and it's what i'm feeling right now..shall not elaborate..

yesterday was the game against TP..haiz..i'm kinda disappointed with myself..i'm not being rendah diri..but it is how i feel..i could have scored a couple of goals..this one particular miss made me pissed..nisa had tried to score..and i was standing very near to the post..the ball was right in front of me and it was an open shot..i angled my stick forward..but it was too late..the ball went past my stick..and the rebound shot was no more..haiz..now i know what a friend meant when he said it would be more disappointing not to score than conceding a goal..but i guess it all depends..depends on the situation..now i think i have to practice my shots..be more on target..but in the end we won 3-1..after a disappointing play during the previous IVPs..and i hope to win TP by a bigger margin the next time..and i'm looking forward to the next IVPs..

next saturday is my napfa test..not really a napfa test..just a 2.4km run test..and it has to be under 18mins..i know i can do it..but it HAS been a long time since i ran that distance..and i'm not looking forward to it..coach says if you run more than 18mins..we'll be benched for the next match..i don't want to be benched..i want to meet NYP..they thrashed us at the previous IVPs..and i think we are finally ready to face them..

went to my grandma's after the game..met with my beautiful cousins..and of course my guy cousins..dah lame tak jumpe katekan..got home late..and i realised something..i have alot of assignments that are not complete..seesh..FISH env.science..

worry..never felt like this before..

ciao

8:10 pm
ilovedjason

Wednesday, July 27, 2005

juz finished watching the last episode of csi on axn..very quentin tarantino..there is this one part when he had the 'surgeons' operate on the guy..they cut the guy open using a casual butcher knife..lalla..and all that blood..although i've never watched the kill bill-s..but i got the gist of it..

how can u watch a walk to remember and not cry?? somehow the movie has more meaning to me now..i ask myself this when i was watching it a few nights ago..'CAN A LOVE THAT STRONG BE SO REAL?' for those who have watched or read the book..don't u ever wonder how strong landon's love is for jaime?? how's he's willing to help her meet all her dreams before she went away?? how he learned how to dance juz for her?? and how he proposed to her in spite of knowing that her days are numbered...?? he was willing to do anything for jaime..he's what i call romantic..hahaha..but i know this only exist in the movies..none of this is real..but can it be??

izzit possible for it to be real??

i kinda of smell smoke now..somewhere here is on fire i tink..coz my mummy said there is a fire truck right behind my block..

im going to skool tmr..again..ish..this is supposed to be my skool break..and here i am doing projects..hahaha..freddie prinze jr. is on friends on star world..haiz..cute guy..too bad he's married..

chad michael murray
shane west
chris evans
orlando bloom
johnny depp
jon johnson

ciao

11:04 pm
ilovedjason

Monday, July 25, 2005

mr man - alicia keys and jimmy cozier
impossible - christina aguilera
try - nelly furtado

so this are the few songs stuck in my head..for now..

so we, spfb girls, had our bonding chalet this past weekend..i reached saturday morning to find that some girls were still asleep..ish..it was nearing 11 and they were still asleep..waakakakaka..so we went cycling soon after..cycled to the playground which was way on the other end..played at the playground..brought out the little girls in us..we spent a good ten minutes on the thing that spins at an odd angle..shaz and sab were victims on the ride..they were lying across the thing..a vid was taken during the time we spent on the ride..ride..seesh..made it sound as if it's a ride at a theme park..aniwaes..we headed for the swings next..too thirsty and too tired from propelling ourselves to greater heights..chey..we cycled to the nearby shop..shaz, zana and i bought ice blended drinks..aahhhhhhhhhhh!! so refreshing..we went back to the chalet..found sal and shan there..shld have cycled to the red house..though i heard it's nothing..but it would have been an experience to go there..u noe why..i mean all that graffitti..hahahahaha..no lah..started preparing for the bbq..officially started the fire at around 5 like that..i tink..as usual..sal and i were at the fire..manning it..hahaha..when it comes to food..we're the experts..like i said..we will be good housewives..ehem ehem..but nah..we're going to be career women..wahahaha..had stingray..the usual chicken wings, hotdogs..and satay..i was sleepy by 9..but when the games started..i was wide awake..played charades, memory game..name game..how do u describe baa baa black sheep..i showed and twirled my hair and then pointed to my black capri pants and some-WAN shouted 'CURLY PANTS!!' ape je..memory game was okay..im not that good wif word memory..screwed up both times..name game was fun..after that we watched bring it on together-gether..awwwwwww..such unity.. nearly one..me and rab jr. went to the bowling alley..the games there is quite X compared to skool..for 3 games u pay $6..there..for one pathetic game..u pay $5..ish..watch the rest play..and as usual ms zairina was the top scorer..strikes in her first 3 bowl..went back to the chalet..played cards..tried to keep my eyes open..but surrended to sleep at around 3..woke up at 7..and found that zai, sal, shaz had started fire..for bbq..so we had bbq stingray for breakfast..and zai, the chef, dipped the chicken in the stingray sambal and made something like ayam percik..and it was DELISH!!!!!! i would recommend it for future bbq..the food was nice..and for $15..i tink it was well worth it..thanx DZAF, ZANA..u girls really planned this out..for peeps who wanna see some 'explicit, unreleased' vids of the chalet..look for 2 freshmen..a girl and guy..they have a vid showing the loser team dancing............and guess who's on the loser team??

watched fantastic 4 wif ain juz now..thanx for being a spontaneous friend..wahahaha..watched it at lido..saw ikhmal..the movie was GOOD!!! worth my money..chris evans is so cute..and somehow i like how mr. fantastic looks..and the thing was cute..i had a good laugh..and jessica alba is as her usual self..very sexy..i want her body..so fit!!! now muz get the dvd..llalalalalala..

lost in you.
lost without you.

ciao

9:10 pm
ilovedjason

Thursday, July 21, 2005

when the stars go blue - bethany joy lenz and tyler hilton..
if i ever fall in love again - boys II men
you and i both [acoustic] - jason mraz
can u help me - usher
izinkan - VE
pemuja rahasia, dan [acoustic] - sheila on 7

these are the few songs stuck in my head..'i just can't get u out of my head..............' and so now im singing jason mraz's you and i both..lalalalalalalala..acoustic versions are so much better than the original songs..only a guitar accompanying the singer..and it really shows if the singer can really sing..not like bitchney..who can't freaking sing..urgh!!! i dunno why im so freaking irritated by this bitch..urgh!! all she does for the entertainment industry is juz bring tabloids..getting married..twice..not once..and both within months of each other..see what im doing now?? im talking abt her..she's not worth my energy to type..

stoopid nail..ow!! been feeling sick today and yesterday..and no TLC..haiz..hahaha.. :D thought of sleeping in the afternoon..but passed..WHEN AM I GOING TO WATCH FANTASTIC 4?? is has been 2 weeks since the release..my human torch..lalala..chris evans is SO hot!! juz like his character in f4..

this week is my test week..argh!! no confident..for my env.science paper..i blacked out..which never happened before..my eng.math?? bleargh!! don't even mention it..stoopid..but i thought it was okay..tmr is the last paper..concrete design..my fave subject so far..quite a challenge calculating the stuff..my hydraulics paper was juz now..did some last minute studying..me and ham were like scrambling thru out notes juz to find the solutions..lalalalala..but it is all now forgotten..no point thinking abt the damned paper..seesh..

got a chalet this weekend..wif the FB peeps..can't wait..!! to the SPFB GUYS..do come for the bbq on saturday night..the price is reduced to $7/8..im not sure..but its definitely not $10..i tink..aniwaes..for more details contact dzaf of zana..sal, nisa and i have the weekend planned out..heehee..also can't wait to carry it out..alalalalala..

the lyrics to WHEN THE STARS GO BLUE

Dancin' where the stars go blue
Dancin' where the evening fell
Dancin' in my wooden shoes
In a wedding gown
Dancin' out on 7th street
Dancin' through the underground
Dancin' little marionette
Are you happy now?
Where do you go when you're lonely
Where do you go when you're blue
Where do you go when you're lonely I'll follow you
When the stars go blue
Laughing with your pretty mouth
Laughing with your broken eyes
Laughing with your lover's tongue
In a lullaby
Where do you go when you're lonely
Where do you go when you're blue
Where do you go when you're lonely I'll follow you
When the stars go blue
The stars go blue, stars go blue

ciao

6:10 pm
ilovedjason

Monday, July 18, 2005

a shy smile plastered on my face..well..i've been kookoo the whole..being crazy..the reason being.. .. .. ..only certain peeps noe why..

training on saturday was fun..we had a friendly against bo, jiehong, idhzaar, hafiz, wani, jolyn, alice..it was fun yet tiring to play against them..especially the guys..they run so freaking fast..but i tink we played well..heehee..

my tests are going on right now..eng.math sucked to the core..hope to get it over and done with..oklah..i tink this post is valid until here..im done..

you're the reason why i'm like this..and for that, i thank you..you gave me a reason to smile sincerely for the first time in a long time..and for that, i thank you..THANK YOU!!

ciao

9:18 pm
ilovedjason

Friday, July 15, 2005

yesterday i went to the sp mustangs match against the rp whatever..and yes..the sp mustangs won..becoz they're juz plain good..wahaha..

i found out stuff while going to pasir ris pri.skool..but i shall not state the stuff here..heehee..a hint..go to wan's blog..i was speechless..wahaha..

the game started off okay..i got a pic of the first goal..but im feeling lazy to upload ah..adeke..lepas game tu..when i want to go home..the gates were all locked..don't the guards noe that there was a floorball match going on?? cis!!

haiz..im lazy to update..i keep forgetting the highlights of the day..and becoz of that i don't have topics to talk abt..

oh btw..do u peeps like the song?? it's from boys II men..the song is titled.. *ain, it's spelt as T-I-T-L-E not T-I-T-T-L-E..* if i ever fall in love again..u may have heard of this song in american idols..good rNb song..wat do u tink of the song??

ciao

10:10 pm
ilovedjason

Wednesday, July 13, 2005

had training juz now..like i guessed it was juz fitness..before that i went to the gym for the very first freaking time..i went to the machine that trained my thigh muscles..and i was feeling it, man..wahahah..jakun ah..did the cycling thing..and then during training..WAH!!!!!!!! the first thing we did was run two rounds..ish..that was okay ah..since we always do that..then we did the usual stretching..after that..coach made us brisk walk 7 rounds around the track..but we were not really brisk walking..more like walking..after the 7 rounds..we were told to run two more rounds..so..after that we did some pull ups and weight lifting..and a final 2 rounds round the track..haiz..so we ran 6 rounds and walked 7 rounds..total of 13 rounds..hang around skool for a while..ate macaroni at fc3..yet again..dah sedap..makan ah..my legs are going to feel it tmr..i juz hope that my left knee don't give me probs..i really tink that the whole of my left leg has something wrong..coz even now as im sitting down..my left knee is aching..HOW???

okay..enough complaining..this is for your own good, mal..can't wait for tmr..heehee..

happy to see you..and i want so bad not to feel anything..thinking of you..it hurts..because i know that i can't have you..and i keep thinking 'who is she? who's the one making you happy? what if i make you happier?'..i want this sweet torture to end..........................

ciao

10:25 pm
ilovedjason

Sunday, July 10, 2005

i went to swensen's again today..but this time i ate salmon and mushrooms baked rice..yum!! i love salmon...especially if it's raw..like on sashimi..haha..am i saying it correctly?? hahaha..i wanted the black pepper pasta..but lukie wanted it..and the last time i ate swensen's fish and chips..it gave me bad memories..it tasted bland..even when i dipped it into tartar sauce..or was it mayo?? aniwaes..i didn't want to risk it..the last time i went there was last fri..bought a few things also..went to metro..and got a couple of important things..heeeheeee..bought myself a gio pants..it is so damned bootcut..im definitely straight cutting it..even if it costs me $10..i want to buy something from jp tmr..maybe..but i dunno when i'll go there..i feel like carrot cake again....hahaha..

had one of the best training yesterday..i liked the fact that the seniors and freshies training were separated..at last..not that i don't like to mix wif the freshies..it's juz that sometimes..training wif them can be a bit .... ....but at the end of the training..we did play a game together..freshies against seniors..during training i was a bit of a clumsy ass..i was running in the centre when im not supposed..during the game..i held my stick wif one hand..and im still freaking frustrated with that..maybe i need to glue my right hand to my stick..after i get my new grip..SALLY!! BILE NAK GI TIASA?? we're maybe having a match against mjc or yjc this sat..if we get yjc..this will be our second friendly..my first friendly was against yjc..so im kinda excited to meet them again..as for mjc..hmm..they're a new jc..but this doesn't mean that they're bad..we'll juz have to wait and see..

for our training..we ran around the court countless times..i was leading the run..but coach juz said keep going..and i tink not knowing how many rounds we were to run was a good idea..but for the last few rounds..coach made us sprint..that kinda made me tired..continuous sprinting is something i don't look forward..unless if it's 100m dash..i was so shagged by the end of the run..but it was kinda of rejuvenating..i felt fresh afterwards..at the end of the whole training..coach dropped a bomb on us..a HUGE bomb..the asst. coach and himself have decided to make us take a fitness test..a 2.4 km run..that's 6 rounds around the track!!!! i was like OH CRAP!! FISH!! and there was timing involved..for our first try we have to make it within 17 mins..another FISH went off in my head..the last time i ran my 2.4km..that was 2 years ago..and my fitness have definitely gone down since then..but wth..if this is for own good and making it big in the IVPs..i would try my best to be fitter..haha..6 rounds!!! seesh..and btw..i suck at running long distance..

but my theory is that..if u want me to run a long distance..let me run a straight road..of something that doesn't involve running around a track..becoz i remember my cross country..it was bedok reservoir..i ran the first 2 kilometres without stopping..and that is an accomplishment..SEESH!!!

skool tmr..haiz..i still have not handed in my hydraulics report..seesh..im going to be screwed..

ciao

9:18 pm
ilovedjason

Friday, July 08, 2005

im feeling so sleepy right now..tired somehow..yet i didn't do much..saw alot things that i want to buy..at JP..had carrot cake juz now after a LONG time..and then after that..my mummy called and asked me what i wanted to eat..makan lagi..i said in my head..but nvm..since it's paid for..decided to eat kfc..haha..

im going to tell u a story..abt this boy..the malays call it loyar buruk..so...............and this boy happens to be my youngest bro..

teacher: fathul, reka ayat menggunakan perkataan 'walaupun'..
here comes the kicker..
fathul: [thinks] walaupun rupamu tidak ku kenal..tetapi lobang hidung mu tetap menjadi pujaan hatiku..

to my chinese friends, sorry if u don't understand this joke..it's based on an old malay movie..in my head..as my mummy was telling me this..i was tinking..brani jugak eh adek aku ni..ckp gitu kat cikgu die..and the teacher said that my bro was tak senonoh..but it is funny in a way..and i heard from my mummy that none of my bro's classmates knew where that line came from..i was like WHAT??!! that line is from a famous comedy..acted out by the best comedians..P. RAMLEE ROCKS!!

training tmr..have to be early..haha..hopefully more female freshies will come..

GSS is great..shopping shopping!!!!!!!!!

ciao..

11:09 pm
ilovedjason

Tuesday, July 05, 2005

u're pulling off bits and bits of me slowly..and this is causing me to die slowly and painfully..i don't wanna hurt no more..don't wanna hurt becoz of u..too many tears have rained my cheeks becoz of u..but wat can i do to forget u?? wat can i tell myself to make me forget u..?? tell me wat i shld do..coz im at my wit's end..and already i can't tink straight..and this is all becoz of u..this overwhelming lust for u shld end..immediately..

so ain finally noe her zain's name..its amin..thanx alot hamzy..now she crazy already..smiling anywhere..juz tinking abt her zain..wahaha..i prefer calling him zain..i tink used to it..

do u peeps how it feels to wait for something for a year?? and then when u finally get it..u realise that u don't feel any satisfaction from it..it made u feel empty..more troubled than before..i've had this feeling before..there wasn't any real closure..and i made the matter worse..this has made a huge gap between my friends..and him..i really didn't think it thru..i made a rash decision..and this caused big probs..i've hurt some peeps..and i haven't even said sorry..but when i say sorry to u..will u accept it?? when i tell u the reason why..will u hate me even more?? but i dunno how to face u..after all this..it'll be hard..

maybe this is reason why i've been putting on a happy mask..for the past year..i was never truly happy even though i seem to be..

easier than done....

ciao

10:22 pm
ilovedjason

Sunday, July 03, 2005

i bought new shoes juz now..a new design from converse..i tink its the new design ah..it's light beige..with red and blue trimmings..at a cheap price of $45..wahahaha..finally..my long awaited converse shoes..now im going to save up for jack purcell..costs abt RM180..so i tink $100 is enough..wish me luck in saving money..im going to wear my new shoes tmr..and since i LOVE my new shoes so much..i tink im going to wear them alot of times..

i want raw-dick to win the men's wimbeldon..wahahaha..raw-dick..and he has the fastest serve..i wonder why he and mandy broke up..cute couple they were..

fantastic 4 and sin city..my superhero marathon..and i bet they would be worth my money..im looking forward to seeing chris evans acting in f.4..human torch..light me up!!!!! heehee..there are other few movies im looking forward to this few months..juz hope they don't clash wif my tests..hahah..kinda sleepy now..gtg..

ciao

9:53 pm
ilovedjason

on friday..went out with the besties..sorry su..lambat..in celebration of su's bdae..so we went to eat at swensen's..as promised..ate and ate..somehow i feel that the fish and chips there, at orchard, tastes quite bland..even wif the tar2 sauce..i finished off su's pasta..coz i initially wanted to eat that..and at least i tasted something..ate earthquake..i don't really like it..coz of the sauces..they poured some jam stuff on my mocha almond fudge..bwuekkkkkk!!! and my fave ice cream was situated next to lime sherbet..haiz..not that i don't like sour things..but i don't like the diff tastes mixed together..another bwuekkkkkkkk!! spent about $75 there..but it was all worth it..we were full to the core..took neos..and the pics were, as usual, purrfect..yelah..org kat dlm gambar smue cantik2..hahaha..we didn't really cam whore..coz tak berkesempatan..went to lido..thought of watching a 'movie'..but the too bad the 'movie' was not available..so we went back..su didn't get her bdae prezzie from us yet..that slenge still hasn't finished it..

on saturday..which was yesterday..i had a match against sim..i was hoping of at least scoring one freaking goal..but too damn bad..i didn't..nearly scored..but took too long..disappointed..the match ended in a draw..2 all..neither skools scored in the last period..nisa and ashan scored for sp..good job girls..!! watched the guys match after that..very heated..i tink..us girls were being real spectators..we had our snacks..haha..snacks eh..we were eating pizza hut while watching..we screamed our asses off..squealing at every near goal by the opposition..and the guys i tink..wanted to play sliding..coz a few of them slid on the court..ish..sp guys won the match..woohoo!! nice game to watch..waited in skool until 1530 for my parents come pick me up to go to johor..ate kenny rogers there..my fave..but they didn't have garden pasta..mac and cheese is a must as a side dish..and then walked around for a while..went to silver planet at angsana..I REALLY WANNA GET THAT BROWN JACK PURCELL SHOE!!!!! IT'S BEAUTIFUL!!!!! peeps..i need ur opinion..the jack purcell or high cut all stars..?? or a brown leather all stars?? help!!! when it comes to shoes im INDECISIVE!! tag me ur opinions..tY..after that went to singgah selalu..ate again..this time it was seafood..haiz..only ate the fish..didn't eat the crabs..coz i was still full from the chicken..then it was time to get home..went to tuas..my parents went to buy durians..the smell was heavenly..i didn't eat them last night when my mummy opened them..not today either..not yet ah..spent alot on food and stuff..

so today..going out..haiz..to azfar..who's participating in the torch bearer thing..GOOD LUCK!! if u go to italy..get me something..hahaha..tak malu sia..hahaha..

ciao..

1:06 pm
ilovedjason