the fairytale has ended. boy am i not surprised. it was too good to be true. i thought it would be fun to know someone who's like him. but i realised that there were too many girls. too many. i mean, of all the pretty girls, why would he pick me? plain old boring me. maybe i want that normal guy who will look nerdy with specs on after all. maybe i just want simplicity. hah. life's too complicated for me for you to be in mine. and your 'name' doesn't suit who you really are. call it jealousy or whatever you want. i'll end it here before reality bites me in the ass. and thank you for the wonderful 2 weeks plus. you made me special. for a while. thanks anyways. and get well soon. take care, mr simplicity.
here's part of a song that describes how i'm feeling.
Lemas - Ruffedge
memang dia orangnya
memang mula sempurna
tiada yang buruk darinya
bahagia sentiasa di rasa
tapi kini dah berubah
yang indah jadi derita
aku resah gelisah
yang tinggal hanyalah sakit dan peritnya
kini aku mula sedari apa yang telah terjadi
diriku dibebani bayangan mu
tapi tu semua dulu
memang ku tidak mahu
teruskan percintaan ini bersamamu
9:30 pm
ilovedjason
i'm bored. period. waiting for project runway. and then after that, i'm going to do my tutorial. hmmm. monday is called slack day. and i need to start paying attention in math. paid for my jersey just now. ivp is in a month's time.
i'm addicted to sudoku. i saw hammie doing it in class last week. and i thought it was interesting. so i did today's. it was fun and a good mind exercise. the ones featured on msn.com is tougher. hmm. i am in the midst of finishing one.
i missed my train stop. again. both times i slept. the first time i woke up, the doors were already closing at simei station. and i didn't want to rush. but today. i slept through the station. hah. woke up to tampines mall. i quickly got out. and waited for the train heading back to simei. haiz. and both times i went home without ain. haha. my saviour. my alarm clock. ahaha. i have yet to miss dover station. ahaha. and i hope not. if i do, at least, i want to wake up in clementi. not jurong east.
mr chen wants us to be on time for our class tomorrow morning. hah. HELLO!! our class has never been on time for any classes. mr islam wants us to perform tomorrow. hah!
9:07 pm
ilovedjason
Sunday, November 27, 2005
yesterday was the friendly against innova. new jc. new floorball team. we won. we conceded 2 goals. at the last period. i was once again playing defence. but i want to play defence with sal. hahaha. the guys lost against merahans. well, it was a tough match for them.
going for class after this. after that going to an uncle's open house. he had just moved house. sally, aku nak pegi area kau. hahaha. jurong west here i come.
i'll wait until today for you. if not.
feeling a bit emo now.
7:17 am
ilovedjason
Friday, November 25, 2005
innova is a very weird name for a jc. friendly with them tomorrow. hope we win. insya'allah.
about my post yesterday. that was just something i had to get off my chest. i'm not going to be sorry for i said. i said what i said. i wasn't taking potshots at anyone. just us in general. when are they going to repent? until the last moments? i shall call them The Fearless and Ignorant from now.
i want to watch harry potter again. i want to watch prime. regardless of what hamizah said. it has bryan greenberg. i still want to watch just like heaven. who wants to accompany me??
urgh! i feel like my english is deteriorating. ah!! oh no!! thank god for when books were created.
books to read:
harry potter and the goblet of fire by jk rowling
the chamber by john grisham
deception point, angels and demons by dan brown
9:33 pm
ilovedjason
Thursday, November 24, 2005
this is the countless times that i'm hearing more than words by frankie j. but hell. i still love it.
school was okay just. nothing much to do. thought of finishing stranal ass. today. but instead we managed to only finish the sides. haiz. school was boring today.
let's talk about what i did yesterday. i watched harry potter and the goblet of fire. hah. very excited. i wouldn't mind watching it again. i just wished that for the next few movies they won't cut alot of the scenes. for this movie they concentrated alot on the triwizard tasks. voldermort looks weird. no nose. i was on the verge of tears when cedric died. the scenes after voldermort got his body, was the highlight. i didn't finish my nachos. i just wanted the cheese. hah. i love cheese. after the movie i had cheesecake [again] at mccafe.
are rules so hard to follow? they know that doing wrong things will be a sin and yet they still do it. i think ignorance have polluted the minds of our society. i'm seeing malay people who i think are muslims eating at pastamania, fish and co. and etc. i'm seeing girls who wear the tudung trim their eyebrows. and sometimes they trim so thin that there's only a thin line. i'm seeing people tattooing their body as if it was some kind of canvas. i'm seeing people drinking alcoholic drinks. when asked of their actions. excuses are given. but i think they are just ignorant of what's to come. i'm not saying i'm a sin-free person. but i'm trying my best to minimise the actions that do so. i'm scared of what's to come. He has already given signs that the end is near. and yet people are still not scared. ignorant i must say. i am just stating how i feel. it's up to you to terase or not.
i found you.
the rose among the thorns.
i won't let you go.
until it's wilted.....
9:08 pm
ilovedjason
Tuesday, November 22, 2005
i'm going to write about the stuff i did that i forgot to blog about. sometime last week i watched the exorcism of emily rose. with ain. that was a spontaneous decision. i'm not a very big fan of horror movies. cause most tof the time, i know that i will be covering my eyes. and there was this one part in the movie that scared the hell out of me. it was when emily and her boyfriend spent the night in her dormroom. at 3 in the morning the boyfriend woke up to find that emily was missing from his side. he looked around the room in the dark. and there she was. her body was so arched back like a bow that it seemed inhumane. and her eyes were wide open. and when her boyfriend went to get a closer look at her, she hissed at him. it was scary to see her being possessed by 6 demons. six. i mean SIX. even the exorcist, linda blair's character was possessed by one demon. the six demons are judas, lucifer, nero, cain, hitler and this not so familiar person. after i watched that movie, i watched the exorcist with my brother. the movie was wordy. but the ordeal itself was scary. i mean imagine someone coming down the stairs in an opposite crawling position. and imagine your head turning 360degrees. and you spewing green stuff. okay. enough about movies.
i just bought harry potter and the half blood prince. and i finished the book yesterday afternoon. unexpected. one of my fave characters died. i hope that voldermort will be finally killed in the next book. and all the Death Eaters will be caught and be put away in azkaban. and i hope that the rumours of harry not living out the last of his teenage years are not true. i'm watching harry potter and the goblet of fire tomorrow with su. hehe. finally. after a week of release, i'm watching. maybe meeting dee afterwards.
raye pics from fahd's cam are here. i'm hosting her pics using shutterfly. hahaha. enjoy the pics. zana, dani. aku pun nak gambar from korang. thanx.
RAYE PICS WITH FB [fahd's cam]
9:05 pm
ilovedjason
Monday, November 21, 2005
for those who wants to view some of the pics of FB raye. please click on the following links. the links to the pages will not be gone. if you missed this entry, please proceed to my links page/part. be sure to look for more pics as there are tons more. thank you!
RAYE PICS WITH FB [khairi's cam]
RAYE PICS WITH FB [zaki's cam]
still waiting pictures from fahd, rab.sr. rab.jr's pics was accidentally deleted so we have to make do with what we have. azfar, i also want the pics from your handphone k. thank you for the pics.
11:44 pm
ilovedjason
PART 3
yesterday was the first day of jln raye with the floorball peeps. the actual meeting time was 10am. but in the end we moved from yew tee station at 11am. ish. wasted a whole hour just waiting. took a bus to zaim's. ate our brunch there. the pale looking noodles was a disguise. the noodle was spicy. ahaha. just my kind of noodles. after that took another bus ride to khairul's. his house is near my mother's secondary school. ade ke datang rumah org during raye main playstation?? ish ish ish. we headed back to choa chu kang. there we took a train to simei. my place. the peeps who got seats, took a li'l nap. because the weather yesterday was perfect for sleeping. at my house my mother fried her infamous super spicy noodles. [hamizah, slurps!!] and azfar being the cheeky guy that he is, told my dearest mum that he liked it and would like ta pau [takeaway]. and my mother being her friendly self, did pack azfar the noodles. ahaha. and the azfar malu2 pulak. ape ah. so he didn't take it. kwakwakwa. don't worry, mak aku was joking around also. :) took 38 to zaki's. didn't know he lived in front of EV. my turf for 4years. after headed to dzaf's. her sister is so cute. dzaf, skrng aku tau mane kau chat from. hahaha. after that went to sengkang, to idzhaar's. watched abit of the arsenal match. and arsenal won!! woohoo!! left sengkang soon after.
PART 4
met up with huda, shaz, zaki at tamp's small mac. took 969 to yishun. we were the frist ones to reach. including shaz's 'bro', shazwan. waited for the rest until 1030. took a bus to BO's. the bus i booked was there a li'l after 11. after that we headed to sengkang. again. to dzak's. we spent a bit more time there. after we went to rab.jr's place. ate nasi lemak. bo, dani, huda, zaki, karoke-ed abit. after rab.jr's, we went to zana's. after zana's we went to riezal's. and surprisingly, riezal is a quiet kid at home. yelah tu. kat rumah senyap je. kat luar macam ... ... ahahaha. after that we went to fahd's. it was at fahd's that we collected the money to pay for the bus. after fahd's we went to hafiz. when his father came out from hiding, BO commented loudly. eh muke same ah!! ahaha. of course ah. kate anak dan bapak. teban gardens was our next destination. 3 houses. all side by side. first dani's, then khairi's, then rab tinggi. at khairi's, there are some unforgettable memories. the guys wanted to go on the lift that they were stuck in for 20mins last year. so old times' sake katekan. belah ah. and luckily this time takde tangan yg gatal yg nak gi cubit org. the time spent at the teban house were short. last but not least, wan's place.
to the parents yg kasi duit raye. trime kasih. i didn't expect to get any since we were travelling in a big group. and to my floorball friends, kalau2 aku termaki, termarah, maafkan aku. tak sengaje. ahahaa. i think today wraps up my jln raye. alhamdullilah. sally, next year mesti gi rumah kau k???
why is it so easy to fall,
yet so hard to get back up?
12:20 am
ilovedjason
Friday, November 18, 2005
boring nye. takde org online. mohd. sophian, nurul'ain, hamidah, rushdi tak online. takde org nak talk to. cume nisa je yg ckp with me. haiz. talking abt ehem2 eh, nis? hehe.
so tomorrow's the fb raye outing. finally. after weeks of raye, i'm finally going out with them. dah lame tak nampak some of them. nasib baik itu hari nampak sally. my 'twin'. eheh. hope you have a good m'sia trip, sal. about the next two days. i want to point to everyone. PLEASE JANGAN LAMBAT. BESOK DAH LAH TAKDE TRANSPORT. AND WE'RE SORTA TRAVELLING AROUND SINGAPORE. AND ON SUNDAY, PLEASE PLEASE DON'T BE LATE. THE BUS MIGHT JUST LEAVE US IF WE'RE LATE. SO PRETTY PLEASE, JANGAN LAMBAT!!!!!!
nothing much happen in school today. just that the lecturer was sick. and we had 2hours worth of free period. as usual we had our brunch. and played some taiti. hehe. i keep getting house of 2. best!! after the few games of cards, we headed to the workshop for our first prac lesson for transportation eng. mr sia was making nonsensical jokes. but we just laughed on. we had a very interesting practical. we were asked to count the number of vehicles that passed an intersection. i was like, "WHAT?" can you imagine the number of cars passing at an intersection?? it's double of whatever that passes through a normal road. so there i was. sitting on a piece of newspaper with ham by my side. and counted the number of cars, lorries, motorcycles, buses, bicycles that pass us by. we looked pretty ridiculous sitting on the ground with a pen and paper in hand. but there was one thing that i notice of car drivers. they like to speed even knowing of the red light camera situated at the traffic light. and that made it harder to count the cars. but i had fun.
hammie!! i want to borrow your willy wonka. tapi tgk lah eh. bile je you want to watch it. dah lah ruffera maseh belum dengar. ish.
haruskan kita berakhir?
ku tak sanggup
9:27 pm
ilovedjason
1:05 pm
ilovedjason
Thursday, November 17, 2005
here i am. thinking hard about the future.
10:17 pm
ilovedjason
Wednesday, November 16, 2005
went out with the besties just now. to celebrate my dearest bestfriend's birthday. finally dee has turned 18. aku harap kau suke the shoes su and i painted. aku tau cantik. ahahaha. we didn't watch just like heaven as dee has already watched it. haiz. baru nak mengalah. dah dikalah kan. ish. met with su at dover station. sorry lah aku lambat. meeting deng tu start lambat. made our way to PS. the first store we headed to was giordano. hehe. but we didn't get anything from there. yet. hah. then we went to DMK. bought the slippers that we were eyeing for. after that we went to heeren to meet the belated birthday girl. after a few minutes of waiting [as usual], there she was. we had our dinner at breeks. and the cajun blacken fish was super soft. and nice. and spicy. the next time i eat there, i want to order what su had. the creamy mushrooms. fuuuuuh!!
but while waiting for the food. we gave dee her bdae gift. when i told her that i painted the shoes that i wore today, she didn't believe me. so when she unwrapped her prezzie, then she believed me. hehe. dee, cantik kan?? tgk ah sape yg buat. haha. i'm thinking of getting more plain shoes and painting them. so must get more colours.
i also bought Harry Potter and The Half Blood Prince. finally. and it was on offer at kino. bought the new cords from giordano. can't wait to get them straight cut and shorten.
when i got home just now. the moment my mother saw what i brought home, she shook her head. and when she asked me what i bought, she shook her head again. haha.
only for those who are interested to see the pics we took just now.
10:55 pm
ilovedjason
Tuesday, November 15, 2005
i'm thinking of going to germany for my attachment. i don't know for how long. but i'd rather go for a study trip in germany than do the regular attachment. when does the world cup starts?? ahaha. and just imagine all the adidas stuff i can get there. :D
meeting my bestfriends tomorrow. i hope we can meet earlier. there's so much to bilang korang. can't wait to meet you girls. i need your advice. sayang korang. *hugs*
it's been one week. a wonderful thing has happened. has made my day just thinking. been all smiles everyday. please continue what you're doing. making me happier than i've ever been.
i didn't know waiting could be this hard. i thought i had a feel of it before. but i was wrong.
turning over a new leaf.
closing this chapter of the book.
[added]
i want to thank NURUL'AIN BTE YACOB MARICAN, HAMIDAH BTE MAJED AND MOHD. SOPHIAN BIN ZAINAL for the birthday gift. even though korang lambat sebulan, i'm still grateful korang took your time to buy a prezzie for me. thanks peeps. hehe. i'll use it on thursday. it's very nice. thanks again. :D
9:55 pm
ilovedjason
Monday, November 14, 2005
nothing much happened in school today. played taiti in classes. tried to pay attention in math class. but the lecture was too damned boring. and guess what?? my tests are in 4 weeks time. and i'm still in my holiday mood. more like raye mood. at least there's something to look forward to this weekend. raye with my fb friends. can't wait. and there's dee's bdae celebration on wednesday. and the shopping spree i'm going to indulge myself in. the shoes i'm going to buy. ahahahahahaha. don't feel like bringing any notes for classes. ahaha.
well. i've uploaded the pics when i went out with my sp classmates. enjoy it.
RAYE PICS WITH SPeeps11:01 pm
ilovedjason
i just watched mujhse dosti karoge. i think i spelt the first word wrongly. yes. it's a hindustan movie. i like movies of languages. it's fun listening to peeps speak. anyways. it's a love story. just like most hindustani movies. in this movie however, they had songs from other movies. song from kuch kuch hota hai. ahaha. would you like to be my friend?
so many movies to watch. so little time. with all the shopping to do. :) ahahaha.
to my bestest friend in the whole wide world. aku nak wish kau a HAPPY 18TH BIRTHDAY!! bile kite nak register for driving lessons?? i wish you a happy life. a happy love life. hinting to someone here *winks* jangan joget banyak sangat. nanti aku kene dengar kau complain about how kau slalu berlebam. just joking. ahaha. i'll be here okay. bile2 mase kau nak. kau nak nangis ke, kau nak marah ke. and tak tau sape to turn to. i'm right here. confirm kluar on wed okay..?? susah ah korang. satu tak leh hari ni. yg lagi abis lambat on hari ni. ish. tgk aku. oright je. :) love you. hugs and kisses. love, your bestfriend, MAL!!!!!! heeheeheeheeheeheehee. :D
12:02 am
ilovedjason
Friday, November 11, 2005
went out with evss mates yesterday. met with dee and tasha first. took a cab to syam's. haha. syam hadn't bathe when we reached. eeee!! bau masam!! waited for the rest to come. no one came on time. smue janji melayu. haiz. nina and ju met us at the busstop. tipu je. then we headed towards fik's. shaf and ariff joined us at fik's. took the first group photo. ahaha. so nice. after that went to shaf's, nina's, mine, su's. by this time. su was already hungry. so when we ate at her house, she ate too. and the mee goreng was nice. but as pedas as my mum's. after that went to tasha's, azri's, tisa's and lastly, dee's. so little houses but we ended at 2300. we started at 1300. it took us 10 hours to go to ten houses. seesh. and we lived in the east. just imagine the floorball raye outing. argh!! it's stressful thinking about it. akakakaka.
su didn't wear her pink baju like she said. hurmph!! :p enjoy the pics y'all.
RAYE PICS WITH EVSS MATES
7:03 pm
ilovedjason
Wednesday, November 09, 2005
went out to jalan raye with my sp classmates just now. the guys didn't want to cabot class. so we started at 12:30+. i thought that it was too late to start. anyways. kim wore baju kurong just now. mine. she looked pretty in it. since we decided on the colour to wear. 4 of us wore pink. while the others wore maroon/red. so pretty. will post the pics soon enough. the rain was on and off throughout the day. nothing much happened.
can't wait for tomorrow though. going out with my evss mates. ahaha. rindu all of them. my bestfriends, tash, syam and i are wearing pink. ahaha. tak sabar. going to take alot of pics tomorrow. can't wait.
overeating during raye is unavoidable. just today i ate spaghetti, rice with dishes, kway teow goreng, rice with dishes [again], kway teow goreng [again]. and don't forget about the kuihs. wah. i think the weight i lost during puase will be gained back so easily.
went out with sweet su yesterday. tak sangke lak jumpe si birthday-girl-in-4-days. die gi shopping. DEE, next wednesday when we go for your bdae celebration, kite gi shopping?? aku nak beli banyak bende, right su?? hahaha. i'm still feeling the leftover sick feeling i had last night. need to eat more vit.C.
izinkan aku melafazkan isi hati ku
kau yang satu
bagiku tiada lain dari mu
11:24 pm
ilovedjason
Monday, November 07, 2005
it has been 5 days. ahaha. money have been coming in. have not counted how much in total. maybe when i want to shop then i'll count. heehee. can't wait for wednesday and thursday. wednesday going out with my sp classmates. and then on thursday i'm going out with my sec. school mates. dee, tash, syam, pink right??? heehee. yessa!! pink and green!!! im so colour coordinated this year. sweetie su, pakai pink ah.
on thursday, i went to 2 places only. my gram's and aunt's. spent at least half a day at each home. and then on friday, went to school. haiz. cabot that stoopid class halfway. the lect. was so damned boring. went home. and then my mother said we were going out. so changed into my kebaye. met my maternal family. my young cousins are so adorable. they are so good at telling stories. but i couldn't be bothered with the story. heehee. went home at 11 that night. next afternoon met them again and continued. and this time the younger of the 2 sisters was talkative. and since i'm the oldest, i had to layan her. so cute. i think she wants to be a photographer. she was playing with my tripod stand and my digicam.
yesterday was a mess. everyone was late. but i had a fun time nonetheless. hamizah, we'll cam whore another day ya?? haha. but at 6, hamizah and i were oblivious to the world. gilmore girls was on. and logan. dreamy!! ahaha. a rich bad boy. i like!!
will brb. changing class. ;)
[added @ 1340]
heh. here i am. it's my break now.
got home yesterday at around midnight. haiz. throughout the four days that i've been out visiting. i hardly took any pics. except on the first day when i took family pics. i think cam whoring mood only comes when i'm around my friends. hee. will be heading to math class after this. ish. will be bored to death. WBBTD.
Os officially start today. math paper and social studies. good luck peeps who are taking the Os.
9:31 am
ilovedjason
Wednesday, November 02, 2005
okay. besok dah raye. very the cepat. tak sangke dah sebulan berpuase. ni tak apply to the girls yg ponteng eh. hahaha. mal perna ckp nak write entry dlm melayu. so what better day to write it. besok dah raye. kene mintak maaf. kene kunjung mengunjung. kene collect duit raye. ahah. tapi maybe this year dah tak dapt sebyk tahun2 yg lalu. yelah. dah 18 tahun. tue benar. tak sabar ah nak jln raye dgn kawan2 ku yg tersayang. su, don't worry. aku guarantee datang rumah kau nye. dah lah dekat. hehe. yay yay!! besok dah raye!! hehe. aku pun tak sabar nak tgk kwn2 ku berpakaian baju tradisional. yg pompuan kalau pakai baju kurong ke baju kebaye ke, smue nye cantik. yg lelaki lak. kalau pakai baju melayu tu, lengkapkan dgn samping, songkok dan capal ye. lagi smart. lagi sedap mate memandang. hehe. don't you agree, girls??
Selamat Hari Raya Maaf Zahir Batin. maafkan mal kalau2 mal terkasar bahase ke. termaki tak tentu pasal ke. halalkan makan dan minum mal, kalau ade termakan terminum, terhutang ke ape ke. halalkan je ah eh. tak sengaje. kalau mal kecikan hati korang2, maafkan ye. selamat hari raye maaf zahir batin. wassalam.
okay lah. tu je. sekali lagi mal ingin mengucapkan Selamat Hari Raya Maaf Zahir Batin. wassalam.
4:41 pm
ilovedjason
Tuesday, November 01, 2005
first off. i want to wish everyone a happy deewali.
went out with dearie dee yesterday. bought my bag. heehee. finally. we initially didn't want to buke luar. but since dee came from tamp to orchard just to meet me. we decided to make full use of it. so we break fast at ayam penyet, lucky plaza. the chicken is super nice. after we walked to far east. and we sat there for what seems a long time. drinking slurpee and talking, observing people. critisizing people with weird fashion sense.
school was official yesterday. we received 3 papers. heh. passed 2 out of the 3 given out. alhamdullilah. it's official. stranal is a stoopid module. cause no one in my class passed the damned paper. haiz. luckily we changed lecturers. i hope rose can get the method into our hard heads. hah.
dee, aku decide not to write the story we were talking about last night. one reason is because nanti ramai org kecik hati. lagi satu aku tanak contradict myself. hehe.
happy deewali once again.
5:35 pm
ilovedjason