fragmentsofagirl.

Tuesday, May 30, 2006

second day of the test week. but my first tests were just now. CE Tech and Comp. Prog. both papers were okay. insya'Allah i will pass both. env. microbio is tomorrow. very the theory! urgh!!

my crazy classmates provide me with enough craziness that i can almost forget. but he just had to appear and spoil my day. bleargh!! yesterday was almost perfect. until the moment he appeared. i can't wait until school ends.

for the past two nights, i've been having weird dreams. two nights ago, i dreamt that i was hospitalised for some terminal sickness. and then last night, i dreamt that while i was walking, i dropped to ground. i fainted. seesh.

how could i let it happen to me twice?? you say you're putting yourself in my shoes. but you can't really know how i'm feeling exactly. it's going to take time to for me to accept it. but i'll never understand it. and the sad thing is that. this is the second time it's happening. is it just me or is it just me??

9:14 pm
ilovedjason

Sunday, May 28, 2006

i'm blogging on a sunday afternoon. seesh. nothing to do.

didn't follow my parents to a couple weddings. jurong west and pasir ris. slept through the afternoon. watched charmed on starworld. i want a cupid in my life too!! just like phoebe. hahaha.

listening to christina aguilera's impossible. performed live. damned good singer. can't wait for her new album, naked. hahaha. first it was stripped and now its naked. i hope it's as good as the her previous albums. anyone with news of her album, please inform me yeah.

i've lived in denial for far too long
can't take it no more
i'm sorry

4:00 pm
ilovedjason

Saturday, May 27, 2006

if i were a mutant, i would want powers to control other peeps. a bit like jean grey. or have superhuman strength like rogue in the cartoon. i'm falling in love with x-men all over again. THOSE WHO HAVE THE X-MEN THEME SONG, COULD YOU PLEASE SEND IT TO ME?? I WANT IT!! hahaha.

i watched it again just now with hamizah. when we reached the tix counter, i was shocked to find that line actually reached the escalators. and the 1705, 1800, 1830 shows were all SOLD OUT!! so we watched the one at 2015. we queued. ate at bk. walked around some. hamizah, i think i'm might be getting the keds. hahaha. very the comfy. watching it the second time gave me a better understanding. i stayed until after the credits. after i watched that scene, i remembered that prof. x showed his students a vid. and the scene after the credits showed that it was actually prof. x. so. who was the guy?? is he a decoy?? if prof x was in the 'hospital', who was that guy?? and the 'cure'. i think it's temporary. because magneto could still move the metal chess pawn. and there's no way cyclops, jean grey and especially prof. x die. in the same movie. hamizah and i came to a conclusion. we think it's not the last x-men installment.

so now. i'm waiting for X-Men DVD Box Set.

11:25 pm
ilovedjason

Friday, May 26, 2006

okay. i'm supposed to be doing work. but what the hell. i'm always like this. surfing the net. chatting with peeps.

i watched x-men already. with ain. thanx ain for accompanying me!! i was so excited for it. i was already smiling when she agreed to watch it with me. grinning all way. watched it marina square. the first part had the huge 'monster' machine. i recognise his head from the cartoon. it was sort of their practical lesson. okay. i don't want to spoil it for those planning to watch it soon. i'll give you peeps a heads up. it's a DAMN GOOD show to catch.

planning to watch it again tomorrow with hamizah. weeeeeeeeee. i'd do anything for xmen. oh ya. an early reminder for those peeps who will be getting me a bdae prezzie. a X-Men DVD box set will be the best prezzie i'll ever receive. ;) haha. and also a fossil watch. you know the one that switch straps. hahahahaha.

i'm praying that i will pull through
i'm hoping that it will make me stronger

3:14 pm
ilovedjason

Tuesday, May 23, 2006

know what?? i lied. i lied about being okay. about being nonchalant about it. the fact is that i hate it.

i hate the fact that i have to choose.
i hate the fact it's repeating itself.
i hate what i did.
i hate how i reacted.
i hate how i'm reacting.
i hate the fact that i'm trying to hate you.
i hate the way i'm feeling right now.

the moment i saw you, it left me breathless. but now, you've gone to someone else.

i doubt i'll ever be okay with this. it was too much to begin with. and it's much more to forget.

8:20 pm
ilovedjason

Sunday, May 21, 2006

met the bestfriend just now. went to marina square to watch shaz's bros perform. very cute. and they can dance!! after that, walked around for abit before deciding to go suntec's starbucks. and i absolutely love the starbucks there. there are books. alot of couches. and nice music. add those together. viola! you get good ambience to enjoy your coffee. walked to bugis. my intention was to borrow a book from the national library. but i ended up with nothing. so walked around at bugis junction. nothing much. sunday nights are boring.

got home. watched singapore idol. and OMG!! some of the auditions made me close my eyes and ears. they really sucked. not that i'm saying i'm good singer. it was just painful to listen. but the good ones were really good. i hope this year's crop is better. american idol is coming to an end. and i have to say that the top 12 were the best top 12 they could ever come up with. but i thought that the top 4 were the most deserving ones. only that chris got out too early. my pick for top 3 would be chris, taylor and kat. top 2 would be kat and chris. but lately kat hasn't been performing well. anyways. i think the top 4 deserves to win. but now. good luck and all the best to kat and taylor.

NurDiyanah!! aku nak gambar2 yg kite amek tadi. thanx babe! love ya!
Suhaila!! lalalalala. love ya!
Muhd.SyamsulAzri!! meet up soon!!

one week to go before tests. it always manages to scare the shit out of me. but i love the mugging sessions with my friends. instant noodles. McD take-out. teasing each other. LET THE MUGGING BEGIN!!

4 days to X-Men 3: The Last Stand. my most anticipated movie. in hamizah's fave words, BEST NYE BEST NYE BEST NYE!! i really can't wait lah. i hope i won't be disappointed.

maybe i'm the one with commitment phobe.

10:46 pm
ilovedjason

Saturday, May 20, 2006

my ankle is officially swollen. thanks to a lose string and a metal goalpost. my mummy used a hot towel to dab on my ankle. and now it feels more swollen. i can't pray properly. seesh. i doubt i can run properly.

my mummy went to johor just now. she tempahkan my baju already. and she says that it costs around rm100. i think it's because that it's lace.

meeting dee tomorrow. met su accidentally yesterday.

watched da vinci with hamizah on thursday. i have to say that it's not bad. but the book is better. more detailed. but i wouldn't mind watching it again. but someone has to pay for me ah. haha. watching xmen with her on sat. hahaha. i will also be watching it with su on thursday. for xmen. i wouldn't mind watching it. and paying it. haha. after the movie with hamizah, we went to the isetan private sale at lido. everything was at sale. levi's were especially cheap. we went to starbucks for the second time that day. at liat towers. i finally saw hamizah's starbucks guys. not bad. quite cute.

don't make a big deal out of it.
it's probably nothing.

10:34 pm
ilovedjason

Wednesday, May 17, 2006

i just happened to know something. wan didn't know anything about what happened during camp. muahaha. kesian die. i really thought he knew. because he was so enthusiastic that night entertaining the freshies. i thought he really wanted the freshies to feel safe. padahal die tak tau. kwakwakwa.

watching da vinci code tomorrow. can't wait. hopefully we'll get the BIG theatre at lido. either lido 1 or 2. i hope it's as good as the book. something to anticipate. after da vinci, it'll be xmen 3 with su. maybe i'll watch it twice. like i did poseidon. hehe.

had our sports day just now. running only. after running, we spent some time sitting at the benches at the stadium to chat. we went to the gym soon after. haha. it was fun. we ate kfc after the whole thing. si wan kentot ah. nak makan kfc. kentot ah kau. as usual we ate and talked.

we disturbed rudy endlessly during lunch just now. muahaha. kesian die. malu2 kucing konon. belah ah.

i'm in a rut now. how do i go to johor when either day is not good?? dee and i can't on saturday. su can't on sunday. so how??

movies to catch
The Da Vinci Code
X-Men 3: The Last Stand

10:13 pm
ilovedjason

Sunday, May 14, 2006

so i'm back from kl. overall it was an okay trip. alot of eating. and shopping. and still not enough time. hahah. maybe next time should go 5 days instead.

as soon as we reached, we headed to the bus tix counters to buy the tix for the ride home. instead we found out that all the tix going straight into singapore had finished. everything. seesh. i started to panic a little cause this has never happened to me before. but in the end we bougth tix for a bus going to johor. that's settled and we checked in. and hence, The Room With No Window. there wasn't any window for our room. not suitable for claustrophobic peeps. headed to 1Utama next. took the monorail and then another lrt ride and another shuttle bus ride just to get there. all because of subway. we had our late lunch at House Of Laksa. all the laksa you can find. my new fave laksa, asam laksa. BEST! walked around for a while but the shopping mood hadn't kicked in yet. on the bus ride back, hamizah got sick because of the unventilated bus. and it was humid inside. the worse bus ride i've ever had.

on the second day we went to genting. first ride was the flying coaster. even we had to pay an extra rm10, it was well worth it. hamizah and i were noisy while we were on the ride. while we watched a group of peeps take the ride, they were super quiet. bo-ring! and then we took the cyclone. and of course, we were noisy again. hahaha. it was my first time on the space shot, and honestly i was scared. i was scared for myself cause i was holding my pee and i was scared that i will accidentally release it in the air. haha. but luckily i managed to hold it in. and my ass was up in the air. and i gripped the thing tightly. and i squinted my eyes. and i was squeezing my bladder. and it was a wonderful feeling. but it was enough for one day. maybe another time. ate pizza hut for lunch. cheap!!

third day we went to klcc early in the morning. ate breakfast there. had asam laksa again. watched poseidon. and i'll give 2 thumbs up. it's good. people might ask why the passengers might still be alive when the cruise is halfway sunk? i love the planning of their escape route. the reluctant hero, josh lucas. mike vogel is HOT!! i wouldn't mind watching it again. and it was worth my rm8. hehe. ate a&w for lunch. bought breadtalk. so many food. so little time. padini was having sale. tops were going at rm29 and it was 20% off. topshop was having 50% off everything. shoes at nose were as cheap rm30. like hamizah said, if only we had a credit card. swipe. sign. pay later. muahaha. went to berjaya times' square. and guess who i saw?? tajlee. he said that syam was there too. but in klcc. seesh. syam, dah lame tak jumpe kau!! rindu!! haha. thought of watching another movie but there was nothing. so we went back to the hotel. rest for awhile. prayed. ate. hah. and we headed back out. since we full, we only the round up platter at kenny rogers. and starbucks was giving out free drinks. i think it's banana caramel frap. i thought it would taste weird because of the banana. but turns out quite nice. sedap.

packed. checked out. got into the bus. slept. read. listened to music. 6 hours later, home sweet home. thanx kak nish for being the adult for this trip. hamizah, next trip, australia? haha. insya'llah. save money first. movie world okay?

bad news to the bestfriends. aku tak belikan korang ape2. tak tau ape nak belikan korang. about the trip to johor to buat baju. aku prefer on sat. sunday aku malas nak kluar rumah. nanti kite discuss lagi.

tuesday - sal! jadi gi airport eh?? aku pun nak jugak justin nye autograph. haha. and i want a pic with him!!
wednesday - jogging date
thursday - da vince date with hamizah and kak nish
friday - date with the pillow

ain!! i think the movie, Tipah Tertipu is showing soon in malaysia. i saw the poster. amer is so cute!! hahaha.

kl has an abundance of transsexuals.

10:21 pm
ilovedjason

Wednesday, May 10, 2006

i used to look at you
and my heart would go pitty-pat
but now
i would look at you
and my heart aches
you remind me of all the problems i'm facing
it's inevitable to avoid you
how do i make it stop?
the problems
the pain
i can't wait till it's over
i want to smile sincerely again
laugh sincerely
but with you around
that will never happen

life is so full of problems. some may cry it out. vent it out. sweat it out.

going to kl tomorrow. insya'allah. hopefully it'll take some stuff off my mind. i seriously hope so.

at the moment i'm uploading pics from Ms. Khairun Nisa. thanx nis. met sal just now. and she told me stuff that happened during the camp. and thank God. i didn't know it then. if not, i'll be freaking out already. thankfully there's someone like zaim. heh. we felt vulnerable without him. chey! anyways. it was a camp to remember. this camp was really a weird camp. and also an educational one.

okay lah. as soon as i finish uploading the pics from nis. i'm going to pack. lalalala. can't wait.

9:04 pm
ilovedjason

Sunday, May 07, 2006

i'm back from camp. the first night was fun. hah. the now-useless powerpoint slides, the guys sing-along sessions. i really enjoyed myself. it took some stuff off my mind.

the guys had a friendly match against cornvix. hahaha. syed harun dubbed as Handsome by ashan. no.9. well. he really is handsome. good looking. the perfect shape of his head. the shaved head. the cool sideburns. his intellect. damn. he could be no.3 on my list. no.1 will be .. .. .. you know i know. hehe. too bad.

i will not allow this intrusion
but you're bringing it all back

10:07 pm
ilovedjason

Wednesday, May 03, 2006

lalala. lalala.

it's next week. it's next week. excited. anticipating it. lalalalalalala.

camp is this weekend. weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.

SHANE WEST IS ACTING IN ER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I WANT TO WATCH HIM ACT!!!!!!!!

my landon carter. the original bad boy with a heart. *swoons*

if love had a heart,
it wouldn't hurt so much.
if only you knew.

10:06 pm
ilovedjason

Tuesday, May 02, 2006

i love the sound of you walking away

lalalalalalala.

i'm now on the hunt for a sleeping bag. i have one. but i'm letting my bro use it for fb camp. yes. see. i'm a good sister. haha. sometimes only lah. ;)

went to queensway after school just now. saw the world cup bags. it's getting popular now. i want the brasil one. but nah. i'd rather get havaianas sandals. i fell in love with the bronze one at heeren. i saw at the annex. not at new urban male. will get it when i go orchard with su on thurs. dee, kalau tak malu, nak ikut?? hehehe.

i was cruising around some websites just now. i was at new urban male's website. i think. sorta. the male models were wearing bananahammocks that pronounced their manhood. and OMG!! one of 'it' was somehow extra large!! hahaha. damn! it was as if he was actually high or his junior is that huge. hah. i couldn't stop ... ... hahah. fill in the blank. :D it's nothing obscene though. hahahaha.

okay. i think i've talked enough crap for the day. oh ya.

sebelum aku lupe. to my good friend, who sometimes can be a little bit immature, childish and irritating. someone who likes to be known as AWIN. happy 19th birthday. kau dah tambah lagi satu tahun. perangai tu jgn mcm budak2 lagi. kalah adek2 kau. heehee.

anyone who has a sleeping bag or for those who are going for the fb camp and has an extra, could i possibly borrow it? get back to me asap can. thanx. msg me. thanx again.

9:44 pm
ilovedjason

Monday, May 01, 2006

nothing to type about.

went shopping for kain just now in the morning. we went back to our original plan of buying lace. in my mind, i already envisoned mine in black with a cream lining. because i loved what siti [nurhaliza] wore to APM this year. so i bought black lace with light cream lining. can't wait to make it into kebaye. my sweet sweet bestfriend, su, is going to teach me how to use a shawl tudung. then if like that, i can wear my kebaye with cekak musang neckline with a shawl tudung. weeeeeeeeeeeeee.

okay DH is starting.

[added at 2318]
oookay. i was telling you peeps about our kain. each of us got lace. orange for dee, pink for su and black for me. all to be made into kebaye. only in different types. woohoo.

watching pretty woman now. one of my fave movies. with my one of my fave actress. julia roberts. okay. i think the adverts ending.

ciao!

9:56 pm
ilovedjason