first off. i want to wish all my fellow chinese friends a Happy Chinese New Year. Gong Xi Fa Cai. hahaha.
next is to the muslims out here. happy new year. 1426 is no more. 1427 is here.
my blog is officially 1 year old as of 28th jan. i've written 200++ entries. i read some of my old entries. and i liked them better. they were more imaginative. haiz.
hati ku kesunyian lagi
jiwa ku kesepian jua
engkau pergi
meninggalkan ku keseorang di sini
aku tidak mahu merasa sebegini lagi
kau pergi jua
setelah cinta ku kini membara
belum sempat kucurahkan kasihku
kau pergi tak kembali
i've got to stop.
10:32 pm
ilovedjason
Saturday, January 28, 2006
yesterday was fun. hahahaha. everything was impromptu. eating at seoul garden with dee was impromptu. going to ps was impromptu. hell. even meeting up was impromptu. spent nearly 2 hours at seoul garden with dee. luckily we took just nice for ourselves. not wanting waste anything. alot of meat and chicken. and of course the 'steamboat' stuff. hotdogs and etc. stayed long enough for the sushi. dee went a bit crazy with dimsums. which was bite-sized. the next time i want to eat at seoul garden, i want to be there with more of my friends. my bestfriends, tash, syam, marl, shaf, tisa whom i've not seen since raye. ain, ham! bile nak makan secret recipe?? and the best thing about seoul garden yesterday was that we paid less than $30 in total. hahaha. absolutely worth it.
walked to heeren's hmv. nothing new there. walked to ps. went to spotlight cause su wanted to buy fake fruits. but it was fruitless. ahaha. we ended modelling spotlight's items. as usual.
posing with my fave kinda hat. and dee posing like nature person. she looks more like a girl guide with the wrong hat.
su with a silver hat.
modernised hippies.
*sirens in the background* never seen policewomen look so happy doing their jobs.
he gave me his fave kind of flowers. yet he left me wandering alone.
ended the day with su eating at kfc. as we were taking the train home. we discussed what kind of material we were going to get for raye. yes. we have started planning. lace is high on our list. i love songket. but i had songket last year. now i'm thinking of the baju designs. what kind of kebaya we want.
my bestfriends are crazy. poking and touching. but i love you.
3:31 pm
ilovedjason
Thursday, January 26, 2006
memoirs of a geisha [pronounced as gay-sha. not gi-sha].
i think the movie was okay. i thought that it focused too much on the childhood and when it was focusing on the childhood, it didn't capture the important parts. i also thought that hatsumomo is a very revengeful bitch. good acting on gong li's part though. like hamizah says in her blog. the kimonos are all beautiful. beautiful brocades. hell, even i want a danna. but without the 'other' complications. just want his MONEY!!! ahhahaha. and hamizah. are you sure about ken watanabe?? hahaha. he's old lahhhhhhh.
i watched the movie only with su. only because the 3 of us were supposed to meet. but dearest dee had to cancel. when i messaged the 2 of them asking what to movie to watch. su said memoirs of a geisha. and in my mind i was already thinking, 'dee would not like this'. but luckily dee didn't come. so i got to watch it with suuuuuuuu. ape ah dee. but come to think of it. if dee came, what movie would we have watched?? dee already said she watched cheaper by the dozen. hmmm. and i'm not interested in local or chinese action movies. hmmmm.
another movie dilemma. for tomorrow. hamizah!! what to watch?!?!?!
7:14 pm
ilovedjason
Wednesday, January 25, 2006
perlahan perjalanan cinta ini
sesungguhnya ku hargai
kini kau disisi
percintaan
selama ini ku harungi
ia nya penuh bererti
dan aku syukuri
tak mungkin ku persia-siakannya begitu
tak mungkin ku memerahkan mata putihmu
tak berdaya ku melihat mu sendirian
tak mungkin ku biarkan dirimu keseorangan
kerna cinta
kerna sayang
hati mudah tenggelam
mentari dan malam
surut dan pasang
kerna cinta
kaseh
janganlah berpaling lagi
pada kisah yang berlalu
terbang cintaku menuju
biarkanlah walau apa yang kan terjadi
terserahlah kepadanya
percayalah kaseh
this is my promise to you.
10:42 am
ilovedjason
Tuesday, January 24, 2006
bila ku lihat dirimu,
ku bayangkan engkau milikku.
tapi walau bagaimana,
pun aku selalu bertanya.
haiz. i'm still sick. no more fever though. just runny nose and cough. went to the doctor's and got my mc for today.
sahabat2 karib ku. besok kite nak bertemu jam brapa?? saya habis kelas jam 4. bagaimana si?? kak dee, msg gue mlm ni ya. atau telefon saya di hp. hahaha.
10:07 pm
ilovedjason
Monday, January 23, 2006
i'm sick. flu. fever. cough. what did i do to deserve this. and now my head as if it's in a vacuum. stuck. headache sia. and sleepy. haiz. i feel like going home but the afternoon lessons are more important that my morning classes. maybe i will skip tomorrow's lessons if my condition is still like this.
went to watch some floorball matched yesterday. ashan's team, OSB OWLS won the RP Adroits 8-0. the owls are good and they're a long established team than the adroits. so after ashan's match. just as i was told. it was ITE Genesis match. against skools floorball. hehe. the Queks and faziz!! hahaha. i was hysterical yesterday. but he didn't play in the first period. wasted. but i liked the way the queks look. timothy, justin and matthew. the older brother didn't look as good looking as his brothers do. i LIKE justin quek. sal says he has a model look. and i liked the fact that he has a tattoo on his right calf. i think. matthew quek also not bad. timothy quek is now BOTAK. ape ah. but not bad. just like faziz. he's also botak!! hahaha.
kesian sal. don't worry. once in a lifetime kene.
it's hard to keep away.
it's hard to stop.
it's hard.
1:27 pm
ilovedjason
Saturday, January 21, 2006
how i wished it was that easy. i really do. this thing that leads to that thing. *heh. all the words in my last sentence started with the letter 'T'. heh.* how i wished that there weren't any complications. that it wasn't complicated to begin with. how i wished it wasn't. how i wished it was.
i'm here at home. ate my rotiboy while watching four brothers. not that i'm saying i took 2 hours to finished a bun. watched some tv. bathed in the afternoon. so what if i bathed at 1pm? there are some people who just woke up okay. after i bathed, i started on Memoirs Of A Geisha. finally. i started to feel sleepy. so i slept. was awaken at 3 to pray. after praying, watch some tv. and i can say this for sure. saturday tv is DEAD BORING!! except for cable. they have loads on. prayed my late afternoon prayers. watched stepmom on starmovies. touching movie. and now i'm playing the comp.
so get this. i'm at home on a saturday. that might seem pathetic. but i got to watch 2 movies which i didn't have to pay for. comfortable = lying with heaps of pillows. good surround system = earphones stuck in my ears. hehe.
things i need to save up for
- apm [but now i'm having doubts because it's during attachment]
- more clothes. tees.
- usb cable for my hp.
- kl trip with floorball peeps
8:00 pm
ilovedjason
Friday, January 20, 2006
waiting for a class has never been more boring. i've been in front of the computer since 12. my class starts at 3. how my eyes will suffer. this perfect vision. the guys won't be coming for class. don't know why.
so. i'm. going. to. buy. the. sweater. su. bugged. me. about. last. night. later. with. ain. but. i'm. also. thinking. of. going. to. ntu. to. watch. the. guys. match. against. np. hmmm. nvm. i'd. rather. spend. money. hahahahaha.
heh. sorry for that paragraph. i'm that bored.
he's intoxicating and i'm addicted.
2:32 pm
ilovedjason
Thursday, January 19, 2006
school was blah today. but the highlight of the day started when su msg-ed me.
i was in t304 minding my own business. pretending to do some work. then there was this sms. it was from my dearest, one of my dearest, bestfriends. after sms-ing her abit, i left t304 in a hurry to meet her. so i met her at dover mrt station. we took the train towards tampines. and i called my other dearie. she sounded so happy to hear my voice. when the 3 of us got together. the bitching started. haha. it was fun to laugh. to crap. to bitch. about other people. haha. it was funny about the that thing and the that person. kesian kau. i hope dee and su solve their current worries. and thanx, my loves. for the encouragement. jodoh di tangan Tuhan. he IS a GOOD catch. but will he think i'm one?? aku serahkan perkara ni kepadaNya. insya'Allah. su was being a hopeless friend. instead of asking dee and i to save up. she was practically bugging us to buy the sweater. i will buy it, su. insya'Allah.
i love you, girls. it's been 3 years since we got close. and i never regretted a single moment with either of you. and i love you even more. so cheers to us.
my bestfriends. I LOVE YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!
she is who i call BANGS. just look at it!! hahaha.
my fave fastfood outlet.
here's some iivp pics. more to come. only will post 3 for now.
my 'twin'. sally and mally. 90/17. next year it's 73/37. hahaha.
from left: sal my twin, nad the beautiful, me and rab.jr aka ryzex.
mally17. my trademark.
10:27 pm
ilovedjason
woohoo!! yen has finally given my KRU's compilation album. haha. ever since primary school i've liked them. they're the remnants of the groups i liked in my younger days. hahahahaha. perpisahan terasing, jangan lafazkan.
MEMOIRS OF A GEISHA IS OUT TODAY!! I'M GOING TO CATCH IT SOON ENOUGH!! BUT WHEN?? WITH WHO?? hamizah, get back to me about this asap. haha.
finally. some spice in life. wahaha. this is what i was looking forward to this year. controversy. wahahaahaha. hehe. i'm going to evil-laughing about this. hahaahahaha.
11:10 am
ilovedjason
Wednesday, January 18, 2006
sometimes i just don't understand people. not that i understand them every other time. what i don't understand is how some people can't stop. just can't stop. what they're doing might just hurt them in the end. like this friend of mine. i'm out of advice already. my mouth is tired of saying the same things over and over again. i don't want this friend of mine to get hurt. or any of my friends to get hurt. emotionally. an emotional scar goes deep. 'back off' i keep telling this friend of mine.
haiz.
on a happier note. i watched in her shoes just now. it was a 2hr movie. an okay movie. some funny moment. some serious ones. my next movie will be memoirs of a geisha. i hope he'll tell me how it went. hamizah!! i also bought the bsb videos vcd. hahaha. can't wait to watch it tonight. i'm going to laugh at how immature nick first looked. how ridiculous aj looked. how old kevin looked. how sweet brian looked. how howie looked gayish sometimes. awww. the good old boybands days. i still have yet to get nsync's collection cd. definitely my next cd to get. money money money!!
school will start at 1 tomorrow. but there is a make up class at 10. and that class is for one hour. and it's a practical lesson. it's guaranteed that we won't pay attention. so i'm now comtemplating whether to go or not. if i don't go, i can sleep in. if i go, during the spare time, i can catch up with my abondanned assignments. so it's 50/50 right now. how??
TO THE 2 FRIENDS THAT I CONSIDER THE BEST!!
AKU NAK JUMPE KORANG!! I'M BURSTING WITH STORIES. AKU ESPECIALLY NAK JUMPE KAU, SU!! AKU TAK TAU WHEN WAS THE LAST TIME I SAW YOU. DEE, SU. BILE NAK MEET??!! LOVE YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! *winks, hugs and kisses*
8:09 pm
ilovedjason
Tuesday, January 17, 2006
tralala. in lab now. nothing to do. actually there is. but i don't want to do it now. got more important stuff to think of. haha.
how rude. i will get ********* it. i will get ****** ****. goodbye! have a ****** life.
this is for those who terase. haha. this doesn't make sense.
11:28 am
ilovedjason
Sunday, January 15, 2006
wooooooooooooohoooooooo!! hehehehehe. i will not state my reasons for doing what i just did. kekeke.
he's always on my mind. whenever i try not to think of anything. to relax. he's there. wherever i look. i want him to be there. whenever i'm online. i want him to be there. i ask myself. what is this feeling?? no. i don't think it's love. cause i think my feelings are immature for love. it must some high level infatuation. it's preoccupying me too much. i want him out of my mind. but i don't really want him out.
10:39 pm
ilovedjason
here are the some of the pics taken when we met.................
my bestest bestfriend. i love you, dee!! my another significant other was not present. but nonetheless. i love you too, su!!
so there we were sitting at starbucks. enjoying our cup of coffee.
inilah org2 nak step cute. syam just looks weird in this pic.
for those who don't know. this is how a sisha looks like.
shaf and i used these tiny unbrellas to shelter us from the pouring rain that night.
and to think that i was going home with a would be murderer!! haha.
first group photo of the day.
11:19 am
ilovedjason
Saturday, January 14, 2006
feeling very low right now. alot of things on my mind. urgh. happier days have yet to come.
one thing to look forward to. tomorrow. maybe getting a new phone. i've been wanting a slide phone eversince i saw samsung's slide phones. but i think i will stick to nokia. very the user friendly. that some may say it's idiot friendly. heehee. haha. but if i have the money, i would get k750i. d600. or black razr. so maybe the next time you see. i'll be holding my new phone. insyAllah.
one of the reasons why i'm feeling down tonight is because sp lost. haiz. by one goal. i'm feeling guilty too. i felt that my defending skills were not up to standard. haiz. instead of covering the keeper's blindsight, i covered the keeper's view. i guess i'm too used to covering the opposing keeper's view as a foward. not a good enough reason to why we lost.
in a few words. today is a bad day for me.
10:17 pm
ilovedjason
Friday, January 13, 2006
im disappointed. just beacuse we lost to nyp. again. this time it was 6-0. so yeah. maybe it was 10 less than the last iivp. but we could have done better. scored at least some goals. i really wished we could've done better. so now we must work hard to beat rp. we must beat rp. we will get that 3rd position in our table. insyAllah.
since i was feeling a bit down last night. in the morning ain said something that cheered me up. something about backstage passes. hahahahaha. we got all hyper and squealing. so damned excited. RE and APM!! had class for 4 hours only. trans.engg. didn't learn anything in lecture. learnt something in practical though. went home straight after school. this is the first i'm home before 1. ahahah. an accomplishment.
river raft race tomorrow. playing and helping out the mini FB comp. kinda cool. COME DOWN TO SUPPORT US!! hahaha. there might be a trip to kl soon. for FB. might be playing against the m'sia national team. hopefully we will be able to go as a full squad. zana, i'm waiting for the photos ya....!!
feeling a li'l jiwang. so i think i'll write some jiwang lyrics. this is ain's fault. she made me listen to hati terluka.
namun semuanya berubah dalam sekelip mata
hati terluka bila ku sedar kau khianati cinta
jiwa meronta bila ternyata kau menduakan cinta
sungguh ku tak menyangka begini diakhhirnya
kau tinggalkan ku hati terluka
1:29 pm
ilovedjason
Thursday, January 12, 2006
WOOOOOOHOOOO!! have you ever felt so freaking happy that you might just burst?? haha. that's exactly what i'm feeling!! hahahahaha. i slept last night with a smile plastered on my face. and i woke up with a smile on my face.
met up with friends from sec school. and we had a lot of fun catching up. making of bangs. ahaha. kesian bestfriend ku. kene buli. hahaha. tulah. gunting rambut macam indian doll. haha. after chilling at starbucks, we went to el-sheikh at arab street for seesha. but i only ate there. and the food was delish. the chicken was perfecto. and i'm supposed to be semi-vegan here. haha. i will post the pics soon when dee and marl have sent them. for now.
I'M BACK TO GRINNING FOR EAR TO EAR!!
12:36 pm
ilovedjason
Wednesday, January 11, 2006
YOU CAN'T SEE MY FACE RIGHT NOW!! BUT I CAN TELL YOU!! I'M GRINNING FROM EAR TO EAR. GRINNING A SILLY GRIN. HAHAHAHAHA. ALL BECAUSE OF A PICTURE. A VERY HOT PICTURE. HAHAHAHA. OF A VERY HOT GUY!! HAHAHA. INFATUATED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
you made my day. :)
9:14 am
ilovedjason
Sunday, January 08, 2006
woohoo. i had one of the best convos ever. he was fun to talk to. sweet to listen to. haiz. 3 Ks huh?? do i have?? he says he not easy to like. hmmm. but i don't think so. haiz. i'm in lala land now. all my sentences don't make sense. nvm. huge plus is he doesn't smoke. so hard to find a nice guy who doesn't smoke.
la lala la alalalalalala elmo's world..........................
i told you i'm in lala land.
all smiles. thanks to you.
11:23 pm
ilovedjason
Saturday, January 07, 2006
floorball. it's what that fills my days lately. and i'm loving it. there's iivp and div 1 league. weekdays = iivp. weekends = div league. i'm just a supporter at the league. not a player.
my game against tp. we won. but not by a big margin. 2-0. seesh. could have scored more. and there were 2 2-minutes penalty. one for incorrect substitution and the other for incorrect pushing. after our game, we stayed behind to support our sp guys against the nyp guys. and i can see that the match was very aggressive. the nyp guys won the match. 4-0 i think.
watched zana's league match. they played against ntu temptest. and then watch the red flamingoes-pasirians match. there are some kids playing for the red flamingoes. and they are way better than most of the players older than them. very very impressive play. i got to watch moosezettes play. and they're good. they went against pasirian ladies. there are ALOT of minahs in pasirian. EEEE!
okay. so now i know his name. a name i've never heard before. and i want this another guy's name. i think i know who to ask. hahahaha.
went out with hamizah just now. bought a top from forever21. again. and now i'm also aiming for this top from zara. and a pair of pants from u2. money!!!! ish. watched elizabethtown just now. it was an okay movie. orly should stick to his own accent. brit accent is much more sexier. in some ways an aphrodisiac. hahahahaha. alot of movies to catch.
- derailed
- in her shoes
- the family stone
- cheaper by the dozen 2
- undiscovered
- x3 and davinci code [coming in may]
after walking around far east, we went to heeren's hmv. hmv tau. not mpv. not svu. hehe. there were alot of movies to buy. one day i'm going to buy casablanca. an old old movie. i've heard so much. and now i want to watch it. at starbucks, over a venti caramel frap, we discussed our fave topic. MEN!! hahaha. from chad michael murray to pieter van den hoogenband. my conclusion for this topic. any straight woman should think that tom welling is hot. hahahaha. he's the epitome of HOT!!
hari raya haji is tuesday. can't wait to meet my cousins again. hamizah, i'm supposed to remind you about the vcds. thanx!!
I MISS MY BESTFRIENDS!!! I MISS YOU, DEE!! I MISS YOU, SUE!! I LOVE YOUUUUUUUU!! BILE NAK MEET??!!??!
11:11 pm
ilovedjason
Friday, January 06, 2006
oookay. weekend's here. later there's a match against tp. hope can win against them like we did last week. insya'allah. so we're supposed to be doing our geomatics now. but it has been raining since yesterday. actually it has been raining ever since we started to do this stupid assignment. everytime we want to the stupid assignment, it rains. bile nak abis camni??
i have just received news about my friend. a close friend. i hope she wouldn't quit. haiz.
the tips of my fingers are nearly frozen. the nails are turning purple. it looks sick.
went out to bugis yesterday. i want to get a top from freshbox. i like the bag they give. very nice. i'm looking for a nice dark brown tee with gold details. woooo. and i saw this nice black trousers at u2. and it's CHEAP!! going to buy. tomorrow. hamizah, we singgah u2 tomorrow ah. hehe.
watching elizabethtown tomorrow. i want to watch it because of orly and hamizah wants to watch it because she wants to thrash orly. haiz.
12:26 pm
ilovedjason
Thursday, January 05, 2006
so. we got it over and done with. adeke lecturer tu called my house and made my mother panic. haiz. kesian mummy ku. ibu. anur budak baik lah. heehee.
iivp has finally started. the anticipation was felt throughout. i was nervous while waiting for the bus. hah. and we were still contemplating if we were going against nyp or nus. we ended up playing against nus which came in second in the previous iivp. in the first period. i thought we played well as we didn't concede any goals. in the second period. everything went in disarray. we conceded 2 goals within minutes from the start of the period. our second period was crap. period. we played much better in the third. but there was the tense 2 minutes. where huda had to serve penalty. i think its for slashing. and huda is our best defender. and my line was without a defender. so we played our best box play. it was very tense. i was stressed. but we managed not to concede any goals. alhamdullilah. dzaf scored our two goals. even though we lost 6-2, i felt that we did a good job at starting off the iivp. we were a weaker team last iivp. and everyone thought it was easy to thrash us. but we proved everyone wrong. so watch out for us SP Ladies. our best team yet. i've been looking forward to going against nyp for some time. and that time is coming. hehe.
after our game. it was the mens games. nus-smu and ite-tp. syed harun played for nus. and i had my eye on him all the time. ahahahaha. he's cute. he's also from cornvix. *huge sigh* :D and then there was that ite guy. kalau shaz and rab didn't mention him, i would not have noticed him. he got a goatee. and he's TALL. and his sideburns are nice. i'll take note of his jersey number. 21. wooooooo.
i've decided that i'm going to watch the div 1 league. hahahahahahahaha. all at tampines sports hall.
12:12 pm
ilovedjason
Tuesday, January 03, 2006
just when i was looking forward to the new year. new school term. my hopes were shot by one little statement. and now my brain is working overtime to work up a story. seesh. i never felt this way before. okay. maybe i have. a few years ago.
so for now. i think i'll give my dear brain a rest. i was watching this movie called finding forrester. it's about this black amateur writer getting help from a famous writer. and the famous writer said, when you write your first draft. don't think. just write. and i found that statement interesting. because that's when the real thing comes. the real idea is written the way when you first thought it. after that movie, i find myself going back to writing. brainstorming every other time. i'm looking out SP annual writing competition. ;)
ivp will be starting tomorrow. at least for us. against nyp. for 3 straight years. hmmm. i don't know whether to take it as a morale boost or a morale shotdown. maybe this is a case of udang sebalik batu. did i get that right?? my malay has gone haywire. i really want us sp ladies to make it to the next round. we're better and stronger this year. so good luck girls. GO SP!!
ain and i are limiting our allowance this year. we really want to save money. save money for APM. haha. i want to see amer in the flesh. but the real reason i want to save money is because i just to get my savings back. for my future i guess. but i'm lacking confidence in this department. i mean i'm a damned movie buff. and if sometimes hamizah and i want to be crazy, we'll go for a movie marathon. and how the hell am i supposed to save my money like that. seesh. insya'allah.
10:38 pm
ilovedjason
Monday, January 02, 2006
school will officially start tomorrow. for at least 3 polys and all the other schools.
can't wait to get results.
can't wait to see my lecturers face when they see us again.
can't wait to eat cheap cheap food.
can't wait to ogle.
i just can't wait.
9:58 pm
ilovedjason
Sunday, January 01, 2006
goodbye 2005. hello 2006!! it was yesterday when i said that next year is tomorrow. and now it's here. 2005 went by so fast. i still remember the day when hammie asked, 'oh! it's 2005 already?!' haha. many things has happened. good and bad. the scandals. the hookups and breakups.
i want to start this new year with a clean slate. but i think i shall not make a list of my resolutions. because there's a huge possibility that i will not follow it. but my one basic resolution is to change for the better. which human being doesn't want to change for the better?
birthdays. i know i will forget certain birthdays. so i wanna wish all of you an advanced happy birthday. whether your birthday is today or tomorrow or in the coming weeks or months. i just want to wish you peeps a happy birthday. in case i forget. haha.
HAPPY NEW YEAR!! have a good year. live healthy. take care.
11:55 am
ilovedjason