Thursday, June 25, 2009
firstly, i'd like to wish a Happy Birthday to Ms Suhaila Abdullah. twenty two years old. :)
next, to my girlfriends. one who would be coming back home, i can't wait for your return. and the other one, enjoy your hols, woman!
i want to spend more time with him before he starts school in august. then he'll be furthur away from me. all the way to the end. but when that time comes, i'll take it in my stride, and pray for the best. i love you, muhammad syahrul.
12:34 am
ilovedjason
Thursday, June 18, 2009
'sometimes i get so weirdi even freak myself outi laugh myself to sleepit's my lullabysometimes i drive so fastjust to feel the dangeri wanna screamit makes me feel aliveis it enough to love?is it enough to breathe?somebody rip my heart outand leave me here to bleedis it enough to die?somebody save my lifei'd rather be anything but ordinary pleaseto walk within the lineswould make my life so boringi want to know that ihave been to the extremeso knock me off my feetcome on now give it to meanything to make me feel alivelet down your defensesuse no common senseif you look you will seethat this world is beautifulaccident turbulent succulentopulent permanent, no wayi wanna taste itdon't wanna waste it awaysometimes i get so weirdi even freak myself outi laugh myself to sleepit's my lullaby...- Anything but Ordinary by Avril Lavigneso yeah. i want to be anything but ordinary. :)
2:14 pm
ilovedjason
Sunday, June 14, 2009
'I don't know what he does to make you cry. But I'll be there to make you smile. I don't have a fancy car. To get to you I'd walk a thousand miles. I don't care if he buys you nice things. Does his gifts come from the heart? I don't know. But if you were my girl. I'd make it so we'd never be apart. But my love is all I have to give. Without you I don't think I could live. I wish I could give the world to you. But love is all I have to giveWhen you talk does it seem like he's not. Even listening to a word you say? That's okay babe, just tell me your problems. I'll try my best to kiss them all away. Does he leave when you need him the most? Does his friends get all your time? Baby please. I'm on my knees. Praying for the day that you'll be mine. To you... hey girl, I don't want you to cry no more inside. All the money in the world could never add up to all the love. I have inside... I love you. And I will give it to you. All I can give, all I can give. Everything I have is for you. But love is all I have to give. But my love is all I have to give. Without you I don't think I can live. I wish I could give the world to you. But love is all I have to give... to you.'if only everyone in a relationship was like that. this song is courtesy of backstreet boys by the way. they were my first boyband. :) hahahahahahahhahahahahahahaha. i still hold this song close to my heart. :)and to those who know my bestfriend, suhaila, i'm here to help advertise her turning twentytwo in ten days.
12:21 am
ilovedjason
Thursday, June 11, 2009
haven't you always wondered about it feels like to cut people off from your life? i have and it feels like shit. i felt like shit. guilty as hell. sure didn't feel good. i've yet to apologise to the person. maybe it's because i don't have the guts to do it yet. i will. someday, i'll summon all of my courage to apologise. i will.but is it justified when the reason you avoided the person is valid? is it okay for you to ignore someone who's done something so wrong, that you'd cut them out from your life? maybe this is where the saying 'forgive and forget' comes into play. for most of us, even if you don't admit it, all of us are capable of forgiving. just not the forgetting part. sooner or later, the person you've cut off or trying to cut off will reappear. and that will just make the forgetting that much harder.----i went out with woman today. to jb! i was kind of craving for sushi. and she was craving for her secret recipe cakes. and i was too full by the end of the day. and add my menstrual cramps, it was like a rollercoaster in my stomach.and now i'm waiting for my dearest to reach home. :)
12:02 am
ilovedjason
Saturday, June 06, 2009
time is great isn't? you can make it finite, you can make it infinite. time, tells us things that we want to know and things that we don't want to know. when that choice is is front of us, and it doesn't go your way, you'd blame time for it. 'oh give it time,' you'd say. but really, all one has to do is accept it and move on.i don't know why i'm thinking this. just because.me? i'm learning to take things as they are and try not to expect anything. so there'll be no disappointment. no disappointments, no hurt feelings.okay, i'm starting to blabber nothing.on to the more funny stuff that happened to me yesterday.i was running to catch a bus. i decided to run on the grass because there were people on the pavement. so as i was making a run for a bus that was still clearly being stuck at the traffic light, i unknowingly stepped into a hole. that i didn't see. yes yes. my right foot went into a hole on the grass. my reaction? a shriek that sounded a lot like 'AAAAAAAAAAAAH' and with that i fell on right knee and then my left. in my hand were my shoebag and stick. i looked down, got up and ran ahead. and mind you, the bus was still at the traffic light. moral of the story? no it's not something philosphical. run on hard ground. where you know, there won't be any holes. in other words an informed decision.
11:50 pm
ilovedjason