Saturday, August 30, 2008
i. want. to. be. Mrs. Mraz.
i'm in love with his songwriting. his clear voice. he's bloody talented can. i'm totally in LOVE with him!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i can never get enough of watching him online. so grateful for the invention of youtube.
days swiftly come and go
i'm dreaming of her
she's seeing other guys
emotions they stir
the sun is gone
the nights are long
and i am left while the tears fall
did you think that i would cry on the phone
do you know what it feels like being alone
i'll find someone new
swing swing from the tangles of
my heart is crushed by a former love
can you help me find a way
to carry on again
wish cast into the sky
i'm moving on
sweet beginnings do arise
she knows i was wrong
the notes are old
they bend, they fold
and so do i to a new love
bury me
you thought your problems were gone
carry me
away away away
10:50 pm
ilovedjason
Wednesday, August 27, 2008
well, here i am. i'm supposed to be sleeping because i've been stoning since yesterday. and you can literally see it on my face. whenever someone speaks to me, i tend to zone out. hah. maybe too tired. no point having off days as i still go out. the whatever-sickness-bug is going around and i think i got it. my hands are trembling for no reason. i feel weak. maybe i am falling sick. after nearly eight months, i'm falling sick again. heh.work has been sort of hectic. moving things around. racking my brain trying to think of new ways to merchandise. i want a bigger paperchase. more space. better display tables. better shelves.maybe i should turn part time. then i can play floorball again. watch more tv. read more. stay at home more. heeheeheeheehee. see less of the people i see everyday.thnks fr th mmrs
12:46 am
ilovedjason
Friday, August 22, 2008
we had a tak-menjadi bohemian day. haha. finally presented sue with her birthday prezzie. after nearly two months, sue, i hope you like it!! :) had dinner at fig and olive. i'm such sucker for creamy pasta. celebrating sue's birthday reminded me that my birthday is next between the three of us. i'm not ready to turn 21. though i want all the perks that come with it. just not the number. like i've been telling everyone. i'm only seventeen. :))you would think i'm doing this on purpose. but i'm not. i don't even want to do this. but you pushed me into doing it. maybe i wasn't that much worth of a friend for you to even try. you said to let time tell. then i will let time tell. let time tell how long we're going to do this to each other. how long we're going to ignore each other. how long we're going to avoid each other. how long we're going to not acknowledge each other. how long before we talk again. let time tell how long.
11:21 pm
ilovedjason
Sunday, August 17, 2008
went out with the best friends separately on two separate events. went out with dee on tuesday and sue on wednesday. and both times were un-planned. weeeeeeeeeeee~ i miss my bestfriends laaaaaaaah. our wednesday date on okay. :):):):):)went out with my lesbian partner just now. for brunch. window shopped. i'm looking for a black baby-g with gold trimmings. if anyone sees it, holler at me. text is preferred.i thought i was over the phase when i don't understand guys. i guess i'm wrong. here's a scenario. a girl and a guy had a disagreement. things got so awkward that they couldn't talk like they used to. so they just didn't talk. one day, the guy asked, are you angry at me? from there, what was thought to be resovled stayed unresolved. the girl tried to talk to the guy but it was in vain. the girl asked the guy, if you don't even bother trying to talk to me, why ask if i'm angry at you in the first place? the guy said, i don't know what to talk to you about anymore. the girl thought, wow. as if all the things we used talk about just disappeared into thin air. what happened to movies, music, books, clothes, and life? did it disappear? the girl said to him, i'm tired of trying to mend this and with you not even wanting to try, makes it easier to just forget about this. bye. the girl don't see how for the guy not talking to her to be called normal and the girl not talking to him to be called avoiding? is it fair?i've given up trying to understand guys. this particular scenario just proves me that guys can be as fickle minded as us girls. and sometimes they can be more emotional. but hey. you know what they say. can't live with them, can't live without them.
12:58 am
ilovedjason
Tuesday, August 05, 2008
people at work have been saying i'm high on something. maybe i am. hah. high on don't know what. i realised i'm better off not thinking about whatever. whatever is, is. maybe it's screwed up to the point of no return. maybe ignorance really is bliss. i don't know. whatever is, is.well, i didn't go to singfest. on the day i wanted to get my tickets i read in the papers that tickets for second day have been sold out. so yeah. i didn't go to see my jason.it's okay, you know. if you're with him. i'm okay with it. if he makes you happy, he treats you better, then i'm happy for you. you definitely deserved someone better. and maybe i deserved it after what i did to him. whatever happened between us, happened years ago. so. yeah. i'm okay with it. :)
11:01 am
ilovedjason