remember the dream that i told you about? well. it came true. *all smiles*
first day at site yesterday. damned bored. i was looking at the drawing. and i fell asleep. that bored. my eyes kept closing in on me. today a little bit better. even though there were 4 drawings to stare at, it was interesting to read them. our boots have not come. so we couldn't explore the site which is halfway done. maybe tomorrow we'll go sight seeing. oh before i forget. my site is at kovan. the condominium. 12 blocks. 17 storeys. quite a big project. and the swimming pool very shiok. 4 different types of pools. an olympic sized pool is also included. there's also a jacuzzi.
the weekend is nearly here. tomorrow after work i'm meeting the gang. insya'allah jadi. and then on sat, dee's pentas. which is exciting. all the eye candy available. cure for the sore eyes. on sunday will be my training. haiz. too bad the genesis-innebandy match is at 4. if it's at 8, sal and i definitely will go watch. i hope genesis will win. they're the underdog team. and also merahans. after their unexpected win over moosemen, i want merahans to win too. to the UNDERDOGS! cheers.
it came true.
10:03 pm
ilovedjason
Tuesday, March 28, 2006
"hello. may i speak to ________. i'm amalina from greatearth. i would like to ask you about _________________________."
well. that's part of my attachment. seesh.
nothing to do for now. will wait for work. i don't like that woman. urgh!!
the training on sunday gave me aches all over my body. in between my shoulder blades, my upper arms, my knees and my stomach. i can't cough. it hurts so much. if i don't get a toned stomach by the end of poly, haiz. hah.
yesterday after work was supposed to singgah tisa's chalet. but ended up not going because i was tired. haiz. sorry tisa. and before i forget. again.
HAPPY 19TH BIRTHDAY, TIEN HARTISA!! may all your wishes, dreams and hopes come true. :)
was supposed to go to site today. but that woman have not called the sites. so it's either visioncrest or kovan melody. town or somewhere nearer. tough choice.
dee. when bole aku amek tix dari kau?? mcm mane nak masuk kalau takde tix?? tell me when. ain't nothing's in your schedule. i just want to have the tix. i want it that way. kekekeke. i'm missing a few lines in there. bile kau free?? really really free? jumpe aku lepas keje ke. sejap pun takpe..................... janji jumpe. hahahaha. msg me aight?
su. sampai hati kau tak angkat hp cmlm. cuak sejap aku.
11:06 am
ilovedjason
Saturday, March 25, 2006
i was already typing something. but i decided against it.
i HATE people like you. how can you say you LOVE someone and be with another? ironic isn't? how you love someone and yet you like someone else? hah. your version of love is shit.
and i wonder. knowing that the person is attached, how can the third party still fall for the person?
two-timer = ASSHOLE
bf/gf = innocent party
third party = _____________
i think both parties are being irresponsible of their feelings. but hey. they're adults, right? they have a mind of their own, right? their feelings are their feelings, right?
these people just to love to make a simple problem complicated.
dah lah. i have no freaking mood to be ranting anymore. someWAN started the topic. and now it spoiled my mood. just the mention of the f*cking asshole puts me in the black mood. i hope that this kind of situation won't ever happen to me. if it does. well. you know the saying, it's easier said than done. but i'll try my damned best to get rid of it.
i'm not making sense.
why do i keep doing this? why?
when one is unwilling to take advice, don't give.
10:16 pm
ilovedjason
okay. for those who watched suria from 8:30 to 11:30, you would know that APM was last night. and yes, for those who watched it carefully, you would have seen my rounded face on tv. for some minutes. muahahaha.
the opening act was v.e. performing their new single, oh no. i think. followed by ahli fiqir. the music was very loud. and it was in an enclosed place. ello from indonesia won best new artiste. while he was accepting his trophy, the ball dropped. it was funny. so unexpected. i like ello's song.............. the performances was just okay. but i did like taufik's perfomance. the sound system sucked. the background music was way too loud for us to hear anything. and taufik danced. his duet with mawi wasn't that bad too. though i don't like mawi, i thought their perfomance was superb.
ahli fiqir and peterpan won. woohoo. yay. even though eka was nominated for alot of categories, she only won one. i think ahli fiqir deserved their win.
my friend from primary and secondary school, zaihar, was one of the dancers in the taufik item. tajlee performed for v.e. and shaz's brothers performed for ahli fiqir. best seh. jealous aku.
when the artistes was introduced, i was squealling when anuar zain, vince, taufik, went on stage. i've always like the way anuar zain dressed. always classy. always in suits. and i want his hairstyle. heeeheehe. i only realised the host, nirina was from the movie 30 hari mencari cinta in the last hour. hahaha. her voice. her height. cute ah she.
okay. i'll stop talking about apm.
8:58 am
ilovedjason
Friday, March 24, 2006
so sick of love songs....
i want ne-yo's so sick!!!!!! listening to click 5. they remind me of OC. they sound very OC. very preppy. very pop. especially 'catch your wave'.
yesterday i faxed my very first document. today i'm calling up companies to ask for quotations. at first very nervous because i might actually end up buying their products based on the quotation i asked for. one thing i learnt. i'm not a sales person. i can't bargain masterfully. i suck at it. *YAY!! GEEK IN THE PINK IS PLAYING ON THE RADIO. YAY YAY YAY YAY!!*
i'm using my old tagboard because su complained that she could not view my tagboard. and also because i also noticed some probs, like failed to load messages.
i admit that i was feeling down yesterday. being a petty friend. but i'm sorry. i was really anticipating meeting 2 of you. my hopes for meeting you both were dashed. maybe kite jumpe next week. sorry kalau aku marah. i really miss you two. can't wait for your performance on sat!! love you, dee. love you, sue. :D
hungry ahhhhhhhhhhhh. 15 mins to lunch. countdown begins now.
12:06 pm
ilovedjason
Thursday, March 23, 2006
started the day off with smiles. didn't meet the bestfriends just now. last minute cancellation. another time perhaps.
by chance, i saw su on the train home. and she hit me with her logbook as soon as she found out a certain something. su, sakit tau. hugged her. lepaskan kerinduan.
i can only walk around with this heavy heart
i need someone to lighten this load off me
could it be you?
the one who caused it in the first place.
10:33 pm
ilovedjason
my fave day of the week. yay. met up with ham and yen after work yesterday. with ain also. after returning my library books and then borrowing some again, we met ham at bugis junction's mcD. walked to the kfc opposite of bugis junction. had our dinner there. the 3 of us sat and ate and catch up. waited for yen and he only came at 8 like that. we talked for awhile. after filling our stomachs, we walked around bugis village/street. kesian yen. not the first time he's shopping with girls. but our search for something was wasted. we didn't buy anything for someone. in the end, we spent on ourselves instead.
reached home at 10 to find out that my refrigerator is no more. i don't have cold drinks. or anything cold. boohoo. bathed and watch antm's reunion. very funny. it was fun watching lisa antic's on tv again. her workout routine. wahahahaha. towards the end of the show, tyra was like asking nicole questions. and nicole had that sure-whatever-fuck-face. urgh!! when she strutted the makeshift catwalk, she also appeared with fuck-off-face. and i really did want to slap that look off her face. and when she talks she has this irritating head movement. from side to side. it's not so obvious. it's just slight movements. i think her ego has caught up to her. whatever lah. i don't like her.
i had one of the most interesting dream last night. hehe. okay. not most interesting. but it's kind of intriguing. i hope it happens. because i have alot deja vus. alot. i'm not saying i can see the future, but i can hope that it happens. the dream was that he came home. he came home. it's as simple as that. *smiling*
meeting the bestfriends later. yay. finally meeting them after a LONG time. dee promised me a hug. hehe.
yesterday, my bro purposely left his admin card on my table. and his picture was stretched like mine. not fair. and his lanyard is nice. bloody idiot.
shit. i really need to pee. shit. i should say piss instead of shit. muahahaha.
11:06 am
ilovedjason
Wednesday, March 22, 2006
the reality of my results has finally hit me. alhamdullillah. i'm feeling rather neutral about my results. the things i expected from the modules were sort of on target. except for these two modules. my prediction for my computer programming and transportation engineering was vice versa. something that i expected to get a decent grade didn't. other than that, i'm quite pleased with my fave module's grade. i'm also happy with yen's grade. i'm happy for you, yen!! :) the reality of my friends' results are also getting to me. this means we can't slack or behave the way we did for our sophomore year. it's academic suicide. let's pull up our socks. insya'allah.
now i have to figure out a way to tell my parents. luckily the thing that made me feel 'bad' is something not related at ALL to my course. i hope that can be a consolation.
on a brighter note. Mr. A-Z. jason mraz's new album is two thumbs up!! i love his music. i love his voice. i love jason mraz. you and i both, the acoustic version got me hooked. and now i'm obssessed with his song, Geek In The Pink. i even recorded parts of it in my hp. from zero to hero..... hahaha. i'm the geek in the pink.
my slenge brother is going to SP today. registration crap. my brother is enrolled in sp. and yes, i'm going to pull him to join spfb. muahaha. granted that i don't acknowledge him as my bro. haha. i agreed. but i told him that when i see him on campus grounds, he can expect to holler at him, "LUQMAN! LUQMAN!" waving my arms hysterically. muahahaha. people already i'm crazy. so i don't care. :)
okay okay. back to work. and worrying how to tell my parents. bismillah.
[added at 1715]
i'm having fun reading all my past friendster testimonials and blog entries and looking at photos. it brings back memories. both good and bad memory. i was reading my testimonials when i stumbled upon one of my earliest testi given. this was yesterday. and i was also looking through my pictures when i came upon pictures of the chalet in '04. that was when everything was okay. haiz. 2years and 6 months.
since 3, i've been surfing the net. my work is finished.
helpless.
missing.
worried.
me.
you.
us.
11:12 am
ilovedjason
Tuesday, March 21, 2006
so. today's tuesday. in other words, the second day of the week. i'm sleepy and bored at the moment. my work mood isn't here yet. on a brighter note, it's left with 3 weeks plus of itp. woohoo.
so you think you dance is showing on the telly. some of the dancers i thought were okay. can't wait until it's further into the show.
desperate housewives was interesting last night. paul young is back in the picture. susan and mike are no longer together. he's too hot for her anyways. and she's too neurotic for him. bree and george consummate their relationship. seesh. george is a psychopath. a murderer. he's just sick. can't wait for the day when bree finds out the truth.
grey's anatomy was funny last night. how can someone swallow 10 doll heads?? that's not the sick part. the real question shld be WHY?? alex is finally appearing like a human. someone with feelings. someone who cares. i'm liking grey's anatomy better and better each week.
when is The OC and One Tree Hill coming back? i miss my dose of the cute geek and the tall basketball player. adam. chad. adam. chad. muahahahaha.
i'm watching more and more tv ever since i started itp. now there are no good shows on sundays as Gilmore Girls has ended. haiz. that logan is HOT!!! right, hamizah? but i want jesse to be back. even when rory and jesse were together, she wasn't creating much trouble. now with logan, she's changed.
sorry for the guy talk again. needed to vent.
today is also coincidentally the birthdays of 2 of friends. Marliany and Hafidzah. both of these girls turn 19 today. so here's my birthday wish for the both of you. Happy 19th Birthday, girls. hope both of you have a good year ahead. stay happy always. pursue your dreams. good luck in everything you do. happy birthday.
it was days ago when i last heard you speak
i'm losing that memory
come back and refresh it
before it's lost forever
8:54 am
ilovedjason
Sunday, March 19, 2006
i failed to mention this when i typed about the american idol finalists. i'm attracted to ace young's eyes. you can drown yourself just by looking into them. haiz. haha. i'm imagining him with shorter hair. and a scruffier look. and i suspect he has a six-pack that is to die for. muahaha. i'm guy crazy right now. okay. when was the last time i saw an attractive guy?? hmmm. it's been a LONG time. no wait. i saw justin and matt quek yesterday. but that doesn't count. hmmm.
sal. asal lah kau yg dream of him? asal tak aku? muahahaha. bole release tension aku sikit ni. muahaha. so how? nhac tre no 1-innebandy at 12; owls-youth at 8 on sat. genesis-nus saints at 6 on sunday. dilemma dilemma.
it's back to work tomorrow.
i wanna wish a happy birthday to kimiko tan qing xiang.
8:15 pm
ilovedjason
Saturday, March 18, 2006
yes! yes! woohoo!! you should see this huge smile on my face. or everytime justin quek ran past us. muahahaha. you can read from my words that i'm feeling preeeeeeety happy right now. hehe. yes yes. genesis won. by a margin of 4. i was hoping for a draw when i thought that moosemen had a chance of winning. but by the 3rd genesis goal, i was relieved. my hope for genesis was renewed. even during the short time when brown was given the chance to take the penalty. whenever brown has the ball, i feel terrified. for the goalie. haha. anyways. genesis won. 6-2. now genesis and moosemen have same points. 18. but moosemen goal difference is alot more than genesis. at least both teams get to play in the playoffs. genesis all the way.
sal, nhac tre no 1's match will be at 2 next sat. i want to watch. and genesis' match will be on sunday, not saturday. at 6. also want to watch. nasib baik gilmore girls dabis. ala. aku pun nak tgk innebandy nye match. macam mane.
the bestfriends. bile nak kluar? we don't have to spend. just sit somewhere and hangout. and catch up. aku miss korang. love you girls.
10:21 pm
ilovedjason
Friday, March 17, 2006
i have acquired dan brown's deception point. from pasir ris library. a very rare thing to be said of a famous author. my first time seeing it in a library. i'm was freaking out when i saw the book. in the midst of reading it. my goal for tonight. finish it. hehe.
tomorrow is SATURDAY!! woohoo!! genesis-moosemen match. sal and i will definitely go nuts. haha. please please. full line tomorrow. haha. and nisa is coming tomorrow. yay!! finally. and tomorrow also dzaf and shaz's match against the pasirian ladies. finally i can watch a MI youth match. dzaf, shaz, if you're reading this tonight. GOOD LUCK!! aku confirm support korang nye!! hehe.
the week has come and gone. very fast. a month has passed.
awaiting your return
10:39 pm
ilovedjason
Thursday, March 16, 2006
time flies. with work and all, i feel as if i lost time. i don't know dates. i'll only know it when i look at the calendar. it's nearly the end of week 2 of my attachment. after tomorrow. it will be a month left. haiz. times flies.
where are you by natalie feat. justin roman
there is someone out there for me
i know she is waiting so patiently
can you tell me her name?
this life-long search is gonna drive me insane
how does she laugh?
how does she cry?
what's the colour of her eyes?
does she even realise i'm here?
where is she? where is she?
where is she?
where is this beautiful girl?
where is she? where is she?
where is this beautiful girl?
who is she? who is she?
who is gonna complete my world?
i'm staring out at the sky
praying that he will walk in my life
where is the man of my dreams
i'll wait forever
how silly it seems
how does he laugh?
how does he cry?
what's the colour of his eyes?
does he even realise i'm here?
where is he? where is he?
where is he?
where is this beautiful guy?
who is he? who is he?
who is going to take me so high?
where is he? where is he?
where is this beautiful guy?
who is he? who is he?
who is gonna take me so high?
there is someone out there for me
i know she is waiting so patiently
can you tell me her name
this life-long search is gonna drive me insane
how does he laugh?
how does he cry?
what is the colour of his eyes?
does he even realise i'm here?
where are you?
10:48 pm
ilovedjason
Wednesday, March 15, 2006
i got to say something. i LOVE this season of american idol's finalists. most of them have such good voices. good luck to them all.
added @ 2333
i just finished watching antm. and they crowned the new top model. i would rather have nik win than nicole. i love nik's eyes. in her poses. during the runway show, i couldn't recognise naima. she looked so different. if yoanna was there, it would be nice too. can't wait for the reunion show. hehe. i want to watch lisa. she's so wacky.
watched teman anugerahku. i don't like khairil's character. so weak. ikut je ckp girlfriend. can't see what kind of girl she is. not that i like khairil in real life. he's too weird. with the eyebrows and all. azmir's character is too ego. playboy. fauzie's character is the bad boy with the soft heart. hah. it's funny watching him going googoo over a girl. who's not even sure if she likes him. khairul's character. hmm. can't say anything. don't know what to say also.
i'm disappointed somehow. no. not about antm. about something else. it just shows.
can you lose something that you never had?
you slipped through my fingers without even knowing you were there
can this heartache be any worse?
so release me from this pain
could it be?
please
9:24 pm
ilovedjason
waiting for lunch time. finished my work. hehe. i was stuck at this invoice. calculating over and over again. the 6 looks like an 8. and vice versa. the printing sucks. finished the 3 stacks of invoices to check. so now i'm waiting. waiting. just like yesterday. for one whole hour i was surfing and playing solitaire, freecell and minesweeper. i was that bored. i was to play sudoku online but it was the tough level and i didn't have so much time.
oh oh oh. more than one week ago, my charger went nuts on me. could not charged my hp. i thought it was my phone. so i went to nokia at century to verify the problem. they took my phone and my charger. and i was phoneless. but my dearest mummy lent me her phone. maybe she was reluctant. but i took it. hehe. i was back to using my old phone for a week plus. i missed my n6111 dearly. and yesterday, i got my charger. as soon as i reached home, i charged my phone and transferred my sim card. and now my beloved phone is with me. i'm naming my phone Mally Jr. hahaha. it also has a sticker to prove it. but only without the Jr.
BESTFRIENDS!! I MISS YOU!! chatted with su yesterday. even though it was for a while, we caught up about each other's life. god, i miss her. deeeeeee. i miss you. too. i miss my classmates. ham, kim. the guys.
thinking of what to wear to this certain event. ain has been bugging me. asking me. i have an outfit in mind. but i can't think of the tudung to wear. and i need new shoes. i want pointed black pumps. or open toed black shoes. I LOVE SHOES. when i get attachment pay. SHOES are what i'm going to buy.
YAY!! LUCNH IS HERE!!
12:17 pm
ilovedjason
Monday, March 13, 2006
currently at work. haha. for those who don't have comp access. haha. too bad. don't really feel the monday blues. just tired from yesterday.
SATURDAY
after work, met hamizah to watch date movie. funny like hell. alot of movies incorporated into it. hitch, meet the fockers, wedding planner, my best friend's wedding, etc. i would recommend it to anyone who likes Scary Movie(s). very very funny. oh ya. it also has pimp my ride in it. hehe. funny sia. okay. after the movie, we detoured to taka because i wanted to see the fuss about art friend [ain, her sis, and kim have been talking about art friend]. so i checked it out. and it's way better than spotlight. cheaper. that whole level at taka was occupied by crafts shops. cool cool. this is where i can supplies for my shoes. hehe. after taka, we headed to esplanade to see if there were any free performances. since for this week is the Mosaic Music Festival, there happened to be one on sat. the group that performed that night was called Tiramisu. delish name by the way. their performance was good and they themselves are good. not that bad. i loved the drum beats. FUH!! i could feel in my heart. it was so loud. the lead singer was entertaining. he got a good body. haha. i know because by the end of their gig, he was stripped to his shorts. only. sal, his legs muscular sia!! hahahaa. but too bad he's short.
SUNDAY
training at 2. but as usual some were late. we started training only at 3. haha. training was rejuvenating. i feel fit once again. after one month, i need conditioning. chey. did some new drills. thanks to dzaf. the 2 on 2 game was fun. and also the 3 on 3. partnering with rab was fun. haha. training ended with a game against the guys. they won. but i'm proud of myself. scored 2 of the goals. hehe. although it's training. we going to have a new coach. sara. captain for the national men team. intimidated sikit. and this time, i hope that the sentosa trip is confirm jadi.
fid, this sat kalau free, ikut tgk match ah. ade genesis match at 12. after that match ade, pasirian match. anything just msg aku. aku definitely going.
my work is piling up. good luck to me.
1:33 pm
ilovedjason
Saturday, March 11, 2006
I know when he's been on your mind
That distant look is in your eyes
I thought with time you'd realize it's over, over
It's not the way I choose to live
And something somewhere's gotta give
A share in this relationship gets older, older
You know I'd fight for you but how could I fight someone who isn't even there
I've had the rest of you now I want the best of you I don't care if that's not fair
Cuz I want it all
Or nothing at all
There's nowhere left to fall
When you reach the bottom it's now or never
Is it all
Or are we just friends
Is this how it ends
With a simple telephone call
You leave me here with nothing at all
There are time it seems to me
I'm sharing you with memories
I feel it in my heart but I don't show it, show it
Then there's times you look at me
As thought I'm all that you could see
Those times I don't believe it's right I know it, know it
Don't make me promises baby you never did know how to keep them well
I had the rest of you now I want the best of you it's time to show and tell
Cuz you and I
Could lose it all if you've got no more room
Nowhere inside for me in your life
Cuz I want it all
Or Nothing at all
There's nowhere left to fall
It's now or never
Is it all
Or Nothing at all
When you reach the bottom it's now or never
Is it all
Or are we just friends
Is this how it ends
With a simple telephone call
You leave me here with nothing at all
all or nothing - o*town
10:29 am
ilovedjason
at work now. half day. checking receipts. wth. no one's here. BORING!!
I MISS MY FRIENDS!! BESTFRIENDS, CLASSMATES. EVERYONE!! I MISS EVERYONE. not ain though. cause i see her everyday. hehe.
another one of my friends have turned 19. this time it's Hamidah Spongebob Squarepants Majed. hehe. Happy 19 Birthday.
gtg work now. cya! =)
9:00 am
ilovedjason
Tuesday, March 07, 2006
my attachment. hah. luckily it's only for 6 weeks. there could be more hell to pay if it's longer. my 2nd day today. yesterday i keyed in stuff into excel. and then i check receipts against other receipts to see if it tallies. and today i did same thing again. but towards the end of the day. i got a new assignment. i did some calculations. hehe. but my job feels as though im an accounts person rather than a structural engineer. aniways. it's better. i get to stay cool in an aircon room. phew! alhamdullilah. only that my ass gets numb every now and then. and my perfect-vision eyes feels strained due to long hours in front of the comp. to be safe. i shall use my specs. hah. somehow i agree with ain. i think that the company is a little racist. okay. maybe not the company. some people from the company.
after work yesterday, ain and i went to parkway parade. i bought the clutch that i saw and fell in love with last friday. ain bought her gior pants. i want the audrey pants. and it's skinny jeans some more. hard to find in gior stores. all they ever have is boot cut. wasting my freaking money on altering to straight cut.
ain is so freaking excited. over apm. haiz.
i accidentally msg-ed him. it turned out to be his cousin. hehe. i hope you'll be back soon. miss you.
5 weeks 3 days to go.
10:46 pm
ilovedjason
Sunday, March 05, 2006
one of my close friends has turned 19. she's none other than Nurul'Ain Bte Yacob Marican. happy birthday, girl!! dah 19 tahun. last teen year. muahaha. dah tue tu. hope you liked the prezzie we got you. pecah kepale tau kite. pikirkan abt your prezzie. and now kene think about hammie's prezzie. ish. and then kim's. ish.
attachment is starting tomorrow. luckily it's near. mixed feelings about it. excited and nervous. 6 weeks.
i'm in love. i'm so in love. this is so sudden. i can't believe it's happening. i want sheila on 7. i want to listen to duta singing. dan[acoustic] and sephia got me hooked. it made me fall in love. i'm in love with duta's voice.
10:57 pm
ilovedjason
Friday, March 03, 2006
taken on the staircase in between marina SQUARE and esplanade. style eh?
after many tries, all of us managed to jump on cue. hence this beautiful pic.
nak step emo.....but yen spoilt the pic. he's like someone from the kampungs and seeing small stones made him happy.
future fortune teller. but instead of a glass ball, i have a blue ball.
you can't miss taking a pic in the tunnel.
seoul garden at marina SQUARE. with the beautiful background.
just a candid pic of me.
centre of attraction.
fear factor style.
oops! you caught me eating!!
me and ain. picturesque background.
i have crazy classmates.
but in this picture, i'm the only one crazy. and i wonder why.
a picture of 3 beautiful ladies. rudy je nak extra kat blakang.
yes ah. an emo pic taken.
plastered.
3:46 pm
ilovedjason