fragmentsofagirl.

Wednesday, June 29, 2005

second entry

was supposed to have training juz now..well not really training..but juz going to the gym to work out..haiz..sal..too bad..tak jadi gi gym..kalau tak..dah jakun kite..had meeting juz now..it was helpful to our situation..after that went bowling at spgg..dah lame tak gi sane..had a pretty good game juz now..after bowling..we went upstairs to join the rest..played foosball..and again..sal and i were shouting our lungs out..and of course again..we had fun..juz hanging out..played pacman..the game is fun but im too panicky when it comes to pacman..i love the game though..after spgg, we went to fc3..to have our dinner..i didn't eat coz i have to save money for this fri's outing..talked somemore abt fb..SP VENUS..wahahaha..if only..got back home at around 9..did my epi report..thank GOD it's finished..now feeling sleepy..tmr skool starts at 8!!! oklah..before my father bising..i go log off first..

ciao..

11:31 pm
ilovedjason

it's wednesday and im in skool..blogging..org gi skola utk blaja..im here blogging..aniwaes..im supposed to be doing work but im juz being the lazy being that i am..yesterday met up wif dee..ingatkan nak tolong die quit her job..but she's done it without me..GOOD JOB DEE!! hahaha..so we walked around tamp to look for su's prezzie..haha..her bdae was last fri and here we are looking for her prezzie..ape nye kawan ni..so kite jadi kluar on fri..after much consideration..swensen's here i come!!! dee, su..maybe we shld go bowling..kite tak perna bowl together-gether..wakakaka..DEE..bring ur digicam..kite amek gambar byk2..

later im going to the gym wif fb peeps..working out..training..yes ah..sal and i will be jakun-s for today..tak perna gi gym nye pasal..can't wait..lalala..

upon requests from some peeps who can't really see wat im typing..i've made my font bigger..yelah..korang nye eyesight dah makin pudar..dah tue katekan..aniwaes..ur wish has been granted..

okay..back to class....................yeah right..hah

ciao

9:17 am
ilovedjason

Sunday, June 26, 2005

SUNDAY

met up wif sal sala jambol, zairina, and ashan at bedok's giant outlet..took a cab to east coast park..not late ah..juz nice..weather very the nice..shazzy was also supposed to meet us there but she was late..as usual..so we laid the tikar..ate our brunch..sal sala jambol's mum fried some noodles for us..after a while of juz lazing around..we felt drizzle..but zairina was feeling sleepy so we juz stayed put..but not for long..we went into leisure bowl and bowled some balls..heehee..after a LONG absence from bowling..i was happy to bowl a freaking ball..but i was rusty..zairina scored the highest..haiz..shaz met us at 1..kate meet kul 10..datang kul 1..ish ish shaz..so kite tukar baju..sal sala jambol, zairina, shazzy and ashan went into the water..i stayed dry becoz i didn't want to trouble myself..after a while zairina came up..saying she was too tired..at around 5 like that we changed back into dry clothes..we went bowling again..this time i had better games..my very last bowl was the best..a strike and a near spare..i had better games before..and again zairina won the match..while going out the bowling alley..we saw a foosball table..at fifty cents we played twice..and being the girls that we are..we shouted at every near goal..sal's and my stomach was aching so badly becoz of laughing too much..but overall..the day was a fun one..dah lame tak ketawe so much..thanx girls..we shld do this much more often..we'll talk more abt the reactions and crooked hands..thanx again!!

SATURDAY

training as usual..but lately i've been feeling not enough training..i want more drills..and somehow when i play nowadays..i get tired so easily..stamina is going down..juz like coach says..after training..the peeps wanted to go out to eat..i wanted to come along but i tot my parents were in a freaking hurry to go to my cousin's..so i didn't go..when i reached home..i even got the chance to sleep..and we only went out at around 6..haiz..seesh..aniwaes..saw my cousins..edry is really weally cute..when i wanted to take his pic..his mum was like, edry, senyum..tunjuk gigi..and of course he smiled showing his teeth..so blardy cute..the occassion at my cousin's was cukur rambut..ayu and azra are already at least one month old each..and i bet they're going to be really close 2nd cousins..since their mums are close..now the number of nieces and nephews have increased..ARGH!! this gives me the image that im old..all of them will call me bik anur..ish..but i will always insist that they call me kak nur..wahahaha..

TMR!!!
skool's starting for my bros..!! weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee..it's irritating to have them at home all the freaking time..and it'll be easier to get control of the comp..

forearm aching..nails were chipped..swollen fingers..had a great time wif u girls..thanx..

ciao..

9:15 pm
ilovedjason

Friday, June 24, 2005

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY BEST GIRL FRIEND, SUHAILA ABDULLAH..dah 18 years..i've known you more than half our lives..since we were 7..all through primary and secondary school, you have been there in my life..and im very glad and proud to say that you're my BESTFRIEND!! ups and downs are inevitable..you and dee have cried over the telephone..which is kelakar when pikir balik..skrng kite dah seldom gadoh..maybe becoz kite tak meet slalu..i miss our fights coz it made us get closer..its been sometime since kite berbual-bual juz the 3 of us..ingat tak the last time kat esplanade?? okay..i tink im starting to ramble..okay my final msg to you, su..

HAPPY 18TH BIRTHDAY..a year older means a year mature too..wiser decisions..nak tgk m18 tu..ingat2 sikit..jgn main tgk je..the next bdae is mine..wahahahahaha..my turn to turn 18..keekee..kau nye bdae belum abis..aku dah ckp abt mine..but i also wanna say sorry for the delay in wishing u a happy bdae..dee and i will always be there when u need us..we will be ur listening ears and ur crying buddies if ever u need 2..happy birthday..

i love you and miss you, girlfriend..hugs and kisses..
ur sweet best friend,
MaL

8:50 pm
ilovedjason

Monday, June 20, 2005

i live in constant heartache
knowing that you're so near..
but yet so far..
knowing that i can't reach for you
even when you're standing right in front of me..
hearing your voice, laughter,
seeing your smiles, emotions,
are reminders that i can never have you..

a poem dedicated to the 2 guys that are preoccupying my mind and heart..

watched batman juz now..it was cool..now i know why batman was batman..desperate housewives is gonna end..a good show..can't wait to watch the finale..

juz like my title said..im gonna swear off guys for now..let my mind clear..no more amer and him..it has gotten to a point where i can't tink straight..sorry ain..for the miscommunication juz now..

for the first time..there are 17 sp peeps online on my msn..usually..only sikit je online..ape ah..

ciao heartache..

11:02 pm
ilovedjason

okay..im getting more and frustrated with boys..and if i don't want to blame any1..rather i tink im at fault..BOYS!! i tink i juz suck at it..i like guys who are ... ... haiz..sometimes i wonder what's wrong..and today..im kinda bumped when i found out something abt some1 i like..i don't really feel so chirpy..even if im smiling..im feeling so sad inside..

2:00 pm
ilovedjason

Sunday, June 19, 2005

had training yesterday..somehow..now i feel that the training is not enough..we didn't do much drills..we did a newer version of simple double..and this other one..i loved trainings when we did so MANY drills..i had more fun..and of course..the games..i can say some of the freshies have the potential..haha..ade ke si zai tolak aku nye 'twin'?? kesian sally..jatoh flat on her back..speaking of twins..we getting more and more pairs of twins..one real pair and one pair of siblings that look nearly like one another..the real twins are crystal and jade..BO calls them ying and yang..haha..because they were wearing black and white each..the other pair is naj and her sis, nisa..BO will prob have a hard time telling who's who..even with sal and i..he would sometimes call me sal and sal mal..wahaha..and HOW COULD YOU, SHAZ!! HOW COULD YOU HIT ME AT MY ... ... WITH THE BALL?!?!?

after training..met dee..to help me with my project..it's due in july..luckily i was given a LONG time to get it done..maybe tmr watching batman begins wif lukie..

to my SU dearest..i noe ur bdae is this friday..but i want to wish you an early birthday wish..in case tak sempat wish kau on the actual date..HAPPY 18TH BIRTHDAY!!! confirm 'kay kluar on july 1st..dah 'chop' that date..

oh ya..before i forgot..wat do u guys of my new skin?? do u get the joke??

this are a few poems i wrote that i want to share with all of you..written when my thoughts about love are still pure..

What is love?
Is it the romantic gestures?
Is it the sweet nothings he whispers in my ear?
Is it the disagreements that we have?
Is it just the words, 'I love you'?
Love is everything that we share,
The romantic gestures,
The sweet nothings he whispers,
The disagreements,
The 'I LOVE YOUs',
And most importantly,
It's about me and him.

[i read a book and was inspired to write this poem]
He is romantic because he knows me
He knows when I am sad without me telling him
And he tries to make me happy
When I am not sad
He tries to make me happier
When I am with him
My smile is bigger and my joy is greater
With him
I am complete
He is just who he is
The one I love.

ciao

1:24 pm
ilovedjason

Thursday, June 16, 2005

now i feel the effects of yesterday's training..the worst part is my leg..my left knee is taking all the heat..maybe because of the running we did yesterday..and my left buttcheek is also feeling it..pain!! woke up today and could not take off my jacket..my left arm felt very lenguh..like i said..my left side is feeling it..skool as usual juz now..for my GEMs..ain and i learnt wat face shape we were..i already knew that my face is round..but im still gonna do the exercise..how to know ur face shape?? firstly pull back all of ur hair..use a headband or something..then stand at least a foot away from the mirror..use a marker that can be erased and trace out ur face outline..when u step back to see ur face shape..it will be obvious wat face shape u are..there are many kinds of face shapes..diamond, oval, round, square, oblong/rectangle, triangle, heart..and some more ah..lazy ah to type..or izzit?? aniwaes..tmr maybe going out wif the peeps..

i've been coughing pretty badly the whole day..hmm..shouted too much i guess..

amer will now be something passing by in my heart, my mind..i hope he pass by quickly enough..to make room for another..someone who is quickly taking up space in my heart, my mind..

ciao....amer..

10:07 pm
ilovedjason

Wednesday, June 15, 2005

juz now for cecon class..we finally finished demolishing the bungalow we built..the base painted so white..it looked beautiful..too bad the wrong class got the model bungalow..aniwaes..the lessons went by so fast..coz there was only one module for today..CECON..9-12 day..so good..the tut was okay..the dimension paper is funny..it looks as if it used for pri.skool kids to learn handwriting..after that..we planned to do our macritchie report..but as usual..we went surfing the net instead..haha..but we did discuss abt the thing at fc5..coz dorang nak tgk sgt rider PH dorang..pendek je..haha..at 1530 went for training..did abt 4 rounds around the track..tiring!! but worth it ah..coz it builds up my stamina..then did pull-ups..cheated on it..did the usual dips and buddha claps..im going to feel it tmr..haiz..did steps..played touch rugby..no FUN!! contact rugby is more fun..then played streetsoccer..haiz..i've decided that im kaki bangku..then played netball..YES!! my turf!! stayed at the my side's goal..scored one goal..and it was nice..it went spiraling around the rim first before going in..CANTIK!! had more shots..but it was either too short or long..after that balik..

i am so disgusted by this girl..urgh!! parading urself like that..menyampah aku!! kalau nak camtu..pegi tempat lain ah..not here..girls like YOU are not tolerated..pls BELAH!!

ciao..

and oh ya..i tink im having sore throat..from shouting too much juz now..it feels so bengkak..argh..

9:18 pm
ilovedjason

Tuesday, June 14, 2005

training on saturday wasn't as fun as i expected..sorry freshies..i tink its because there were more peeps than usual..and when there were lesser peeps..we had more fun..we get to mingle and make fun with each other..but after the whole training..when the boys had to warm up..the seniors got to play our usual game..and this time i didn't feel so gabra..i mean..when playing with the freshies..their style of playing is not up to ours..macam we play according to our lines..and when add dorang je..ish..smue tonggang terbalik..and i realise that my defending skills is going down the drain..im not up to standard..org melayu kate dah karat..but i hope to get better wif being a forward..i got a glimpse of the new FB boys..sikit nye ramai..they had so many lines for their games..but wat i tink is that juz for the first training gini ramai..for the next few trainings mesti sikit je..wahaha..wat am i babbling..so tmr ade training..heard it was going to be physical training..weeeeeeee..ape eh agaknye..?? tak sabar..weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee..

so on saturday..after training went to the pck musical wif ain, hamz and bf and yan and gf..and since i juz had training..i was kinda sleepy..so during the first half of the musical..i was sleeping wif my eyes open..i was so lethargic..luckily the second act had more umph!! the climax..but sorry to say this..im happy that i only paid $20..if i paid a higher price and got this kind of show..i would feel robbed..the plot of the musical isn't that good..it was juz okay..and they paid $3mil for this production..ish..and i can say that tan kheng hua is good theatre actress..she's the most experienced one up there..after the show..we parted..okay..hamz and her bf went their own way..ain, yen, idah and i went to suntec..waiting for the bus was okay..nothing new..but the number of peeps waiting for the 2 buses was big!! and we had to wait for at least 3 buses to board one..so we took the bus to suntec..walked around..went to fox..then ain and i decided to go to bugis..wahaha..the first thing we did was get OCK!!! then walked around again..and lastly went to fox..bought a tee for $8..the tee which is size 2..the sleeves is not long enough for my arms..haiz..luckily it's stretchable..

on sunday..the supposed to be gathering wif so many peeps turned out to be juz the four of us..rohana was there too..but she didn't join us for dinner..watched mr and mrs smith..GOOD GOOD movie!! shld watch..funny..adam brody is CUTE!!!!!!!! took pics..alot of it..syam was cam whoring..haha..u can see his face on almost all the pics..got back..late..father was angry as usual..but going out wif friends was definitelt worth it..LOVE YOU PEEPS!!!

it was back to skool on monday..lessons as per usual..i noe im missing a few details here and there..

to DEE, TASH AND SYAM!! PICS ARE OUT..

ciao......

10:04 pm
ilovedjason

Friday, June 10, 2005

on tuesday..watched movie wif hamizah..watched madagascar..it was okaylah..the penguins were cute..and so was marty and melman..after that ate at secret recipe..wanted to try the fish and chips but it was mahal..next time..ordered the lasagne instead..it had alot of meat instead of cheese..i prefer pizza hut's..but wat the hell..western food is western food..can't complain..hamizah ordered the tom yam..i had free cheesecake..oreo cheesecake..fulamak..!! sedap!! it was cheesey..since hamizah and i planned to have a sleepover at her house..we went back to toa payoh..hamizah rented OC and clueless..watched bride and prejudice and clueless before falling asleep midway..the next morning we satisfied our craving for cold cereal..frosted flakes wif cold milk..ooh..NICE!! i want it now........so we both went to our respective destinations..i went to skool..hamizah went for her driving class..after skool..i went to orchard wif ain and ham..juz walked around..then went back to toa payoh..had OC marathon..to OC fans..u know how luke's father is gay?? well..on the vcd..they actually show the father and the boyfriend kissing..ish..no wonder it was m18..and dee said that this season marissa and alex kissed too..hmm..i wonder..i want seth and summer to get back together..they're cute together..

on thursday i had my GEMs..now i know that i have a proportionate body..ain..my body is only 1cm longer than my legs..so i still tink that my body is proportionate..i love my GEMs..i can't wait to know how to dress properly for my body type..and what colours suit my skin tone..we also had geomatics prac on thursday..izzit?? don't care when ah..it was fun as usual..and demolishing the bungalow i had helped built the last sem..was great..the feeling was great..will soon post the pics..haha..

tmr is the first floorball training since the camp..and i hope we have a good turnout..i can't wait to wear my new camp tee..orange lagi..haha..sally and i plan to wear everything the same..haha..and tmr im also watching the PCK musical wif my classmates..it was an opportunity..$20..i feel so half hearted to go..coz intially i wanted to go to m'sia wif hamizah..but nvm..now must tink wat to wear..SIS is one cold place..sleepy already...

the camp pics are OUT!!!! check them out..and i must warn you..it's alot..it has pics from the camp and cca week..so take ur time to browse thru..tY

ciao

9:35 pm
ilovedjason

Monday, June 06, 2005

urgh!! this is the second of week of skool..and already i feel tired..lessons are not fun right now..the only thing im looking forward in skool is my GEMs..and geomatics and thank god the only math lesson i have is on thursday..but math is okay..for now..ain and hamz complained that one of our teachers are favouring the other class more..this is not unusual to me..i've had this kind of treatment in sec skool..and frankly i don't care..teachers who do this are not good teachers..AGREED??? muahaha..aniwaes..it's a LONG time since i read something..and the next book im looking forward to reading is Harry Potter and The Half Blood Prince..is the title correct?? can't wait..i tink i'll buy the hardcover..and speaking of harry potter..im reminded that i need to widen my horizon on the movie front..i need to watch diff movies from diff genres..i mean i already like romantic comedies..horror..mystery..and now i kinda like sci-fi and stories like harry potter and LOTR..though the plots can never happen in real life..but somehow i don't really like watching cartoon movies..it bores me..i was nearly asleep in shark tale..almost..and i HATE shrek!!!!! eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!! u can't imagine my hatred..but i hate westlife more than anything else in this world..and why the hell am i talking abt those irish asses!!??! ish..aniwaes..gtg sleep..early day tmr..but..later that day i might be watching madagascar wif hamizah..woohoo..im looking forward to this..even though its a cartoon..

i like to move it, move it..
you like..*hah* move it..

ciao

11:11 pm
ilovedjason

fb fo camp juz ended yesterday..it was okay for me..i prefered the training camp..it was more fun..despite that..this camp has let me get to know some new peeps..and also let me liked another guy..i still like amer though..and i was tinking..is it possible that a girl likes two guys at a time?? coz i tink its happening to me now..okay..nvm..my love life is a boring topic..and wan..i noe abt the email even before i opened it..got it before..i would tell u the truth but... ...who did u get it from??

floorball camp..like i said it was okay..nothing much..only this time i brought lesser stuff and did lesser stuff too..ish..i wanted to take part more..being the comm member has its disadvantages..hopefully next camp i can be the GL..if it's still possible..and my team for the mini league won most of the activities..im so happy..first night of the camp stayed up half the night and chatted wif nanthu..had fun recalling abt np days..second night was low key..coz the next day was a long one..

tmr will be going to hamizah's..woohoo..will prob have a movie marathon..okay..gtg..emergency crap..muahaha..

oh ya..changed back to the previous skin coz the other one was giving probs..so yeah..tag when u leave ya..i'll post the FB FO camp pics soon..............................

ciao..

amer...adam...

6:48 pm
ilovedjason

Thursday, June 02, 2005

ARGH!!! can't i have a decent comp play?? maybe downloading some stuff isn't good..and playing stoopid warcraft..urgh..my bros shld stop playing that dumb game..no offense to fans of the game..maybe my father needs to buy a whole new comp..i tink we do..this bloody old comp shld go to my bros..and maybe my mummy..she also plays the internet games..the new comp will be strictly to skool and of course for me to use ah..muahaha..but maybe..when attachment starts..get money..i'll buy my own laptop..wahaha..

okay..first week of skool is coming to an end..so fast..maybe becoz of the running around i do nowadays..going t the booth to help out..so many yr1s want to sign..but only so few to come for the camp..but nonetheless i want this camp to be a successful one..insya'allah..helping out at the booth is fun..u get to meet kiasu yr1s..hell i was kiasu once too..*bloody popups!!* juz now when i was going to skool..at simei mrt station..yes..i live in simei peeps..haha..there was this 2 girls..already wearing their lanyards..when skool is nearly 45 mins away..haha..i was tinking when i saw them..walau..so kiasu..was i one of them?? i hope not..but for my class..for a short while there was a craze of handphone straps..every1, nearly every1, in class had one on..mine has become a backup keychain..haha..nice colours though..rainbow..haha..

this time round..i hope the camp food will be better..haha..im so excited for this camp..not only becoz of the new peeps im going to meet..but also getting to know my own friends better..i mean..we've been in this cca for nearly a year..and i don't even know some of their fave colours..so i hope this camp will bond us closer together..and maybe i'll have a new guy to pine on..haha..and thank GOD..i don't have to bring alot of stuff this camp..thank you for that meeting last week, camp chiefs..

my GEMs!!! love it love it love it!!! another module im loving this sem..okay..not another module..the first module im loving this sem..i want geomatics to be juz as fun as last year..PEEPS!! TRY UR BEST TO GET INTO ETIQUETTE AND PROFESSIONAL IMAGE!! very fun..had my first math class juz now..okaylah..not too bad..yet..there's probability..which i suck at..need to pay attention more..

to SU..........yay!! jumpe kau tadi..so happy..but too bad for the bad news..maybe kite plan another outing..kite kluar lagi..but this time..kau kene ikut k!!! and darling..i always look gorgeous..muahahahahaha..
to DEE......bile nak jumpe??? we need to do stuff...i need ur help wif my project!!!!!!

to 'amer'..shld i walk away from u?? coz it only breaking my heart to know that u're in love wif someones..to 'amer'..listen to the words of christina aguilera's walk away..that's how i feel abt u now..but at the same time..i want so bad to be wif u..and i looked gorgeous, as su put it, juz for u..but....maybe i shld juz walk away.......................goodbye..

ciao..

~walking away right now........~

11:16 pm
ilovedjason