fragmentsofagirl.

Sunday, November 30, 2008

i guess it's not really out of my system. yet. because the situation still made me sad. 'we' feel different. good different, bad different. same difference.

i'm disappointed with how things are turning out to be. i wasn't hoping for anything but yet, there's this treacherous, hopeful feeling that just keeps coming back. like i was secretly, wishing and hoping. maybe i was. i don't know. the little things that wasn't supposed to matter mattered.

how i wished things were different. but i wouldn't turn back time to change any of it.

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i exercised my card today. i'll feel the ache in a month's time. :(

11:06 pm
ilovedjason

Saturday, November 29, 2008

i fell in love all over again.

something. someone. his voice. his brilliance. his personality. i remembered the first time i heard of him. i was thinking, which one? him or the other one? i think i'll choose him. and i'm glad. glad of who he turned out to be. he's so down to earth. when he does his thing, i feel at peace. i can lose myself in him. i can tune out the outside world and just listen to him. his clever words. his quirky style. his nimble fingers. him. even my blog url is inspired by this geek in the pink. he is Jason Mraz. loves.

i was walking around parkway yesterday, trying to restrain myself from going into gramophone alone. knowing that i'll only end up broker alone than when i'm with someone. when lanxi finally reached, i told her of my predicament. but we compromised and she said, okay we'll go in and i won't let you spend. so yeah. i held her to that promise. we walked in and i headed straight to the dvd section which is only natural for me. i was looking at the xmen trilogy all in one dvd and i thought, whoa i'm lucky to have all three already. and suddenly, i was boogying to the music playing. and i realised that it was jason. and i listened closer and soon realised it was live!! and i went slightly crazy. lanxi brought me to where they played the cd. and to my horror, it was his limited edition. his deluxe edition. his recent album, his EPs, and dvd. all in one. a 3-discs set for only $27.95!! i went crazier. after much comtemplation, i got it. and that very purchase made my day. and now listening to the EP, i'm already on a Jason high.

i fell in love. all over again. how is this possible?

but thanks woman! you didn't try to stop me from buying the cd. hahahahahaha. i would have gotten it some way or another. i did some serious damage to my cards last night. it's time for them to rest.

amalina loves jason.

7:54 pm
ilovedjason

Monday, November 24, 2008

believe it or not, this is my 600th entry. haha.

believe it or not, i'm listening to most of kylie minogue's singles. i'm watching some of her videos. getting myself psyched for her concert tomorrow night. believe it or not, i'm going for kylie's X concert. can't wait!!!!

believe it or not, i was off today and i stayed home. sure, i slept most of the time but i stayed at home.

believe it or not, i've been rereading my harry potters. and now i'm on book 5, The Order of the Phoenix. sue, i think we should have given dee harry potter or something. ahahahahaha.

believe it or not, i'm thinking of reading the Twilight series. i've been seeing the trailers for the movie and it intrigues me. 'cedric diggory' looks good as edward. hahaha. i might buy the books.

believe it or not, i'm craving for Madjack's OZ Brown and Popeye's Mashed Potatoes.

believe it or not.
thank you.
i'm :)

9:00 pm
ilovedjason

Saturday, November 22, 2008

i wanna talk about something tonight. but i just can't seem to think of anything to type about. random things. nothing.

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i've learnt not to put too much hope on anything. i'll just end up disappointed. it's best to take things as it is. whatever happen happens. que sera sera. i guess i've lost faith in humanity and now i'm in pursuit of finding it. again. will the people around me, those close to me, help me regain that faith? i sure hope so. how ironic.

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the bestfriend had a surprise birthday party thrown for her by her KBs. at McDonalds. hope you love it, babe. i had fun at my first macs birthday party even with the cockups. haha. bestfriend, i hope you had a blast celebrating your 21st. with the great presents given by your bestest friends, KBs and boyfriend. have a great year, bestfriend. :)

11:07 pm
ilovedjason

Thursday, November 20, 2008

it was a day of celebrations. sue came over to my house for our last minute wrapping of our gag gift for dee. which i thought was brilliant, considering she hates books. met and dee and had our dinner at a thai restaurant in arab street. after returning my book, we headed to starbucks for a chill out session and presents opening ceremony. hehe.

i received mine first. as i got a first look of my present, i thought, oh no?! izzit something from paperchase?? the present was in a borders bag, mind you. of course that would be first thought. inside the bag, was a box with my face on it. inside that box, was 21 folded hearts and another box. this time it was wrapped with newspaper. it was as if it was prepared for a game of pass the parcel. as i unwrapped each piece, i kept shaking the squarish box. when i got to the last piece, i saw the words on the real box, and the metal, i went, 'ARE YOU SERIOUS?????' and i opened it. to my utter disbelief, my bestfriends bought me a FOSSIL watch!!!!!! even though i just bought myself an adidas watch, i've always wanted another fossil. my favourite present so far. :) thank you, loves!

next up, dee. as we gave her her gag gift, sue added more suspense to it. and i swear, dee's reaction to her books was classic, yet expected. hahahahaha. after snapping pictures of her with her new books, we gave dee her real present. we know you love it, so please take care of it okay!! hahaha. pictures are posted on my shutterfly. just click on my pics. <<

this year has been a year of being grateful for the friends i have. for those who know who i am, how i am, and is still here as my friend, thank you. i'm proud to call you my friend and i thank you for being my friend.

11:25 pm
ilovedjason

Tuesday, November 18, 2008

HAPPY BIRTHDAY NADIAH!!! twenty!! :)

yes. i'm finally off today. i've slept in. and now i need to prepare for later. my birthday celebration with the bestfriends. like finally. after a month. hahahaha.

i've got alot of plans for my pay this month. i owe people money. hahahaha. all thanks to kl, birthdays and concert. and now with the upcoming 'sale' next weekend. i'll never know if i can survive until it actually happens.

though we have not hit the ground
doesn't mean we're not still falling
built a wall around my heart
never let it fall apart
but strangely i wish secretly
it would fall down......

10:19 am
ilovedjason

Thursday, November 13, 2008

one turned 18 and the other one 21. to both ladies (you know who you are), HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!

i officially don't like the month of november. four freaking birthdays. and each birthday is close to each other. november = broke month.

:)

12:17 am
ilovedjason

Sunday, November 09, 2008

i won't say my feelings have been on a rollercoaster lately because it's not. i'm at peace with myself. for this period of time. a distraction is all i need at the moment. to forget. to shield. distraction = friends with benefits

why

why do you always do this to me?
why couldn't you just see through me?
how come you act like this
like you just don't care at all
do you expect me to believe i was the only one to fall?
i can feel you near me
even though you're far away
i can feel you baby
i can feel
why
it's not supposed to feel this way
i need you
more and more each day
it's not supposed to hurt this way
i need you
tell me, are you and me still together
tell me, do you think we could last forever
tell me, why
hey listen to what we're not saying
let's play a different game than what we're playing
try to look at me and really see my heart
do you expect me to believe i'm gonna let us fall apart?
i can feel
i can feel you near me
even when you're far away
i can feel you
so go and think about whatever you need to think about
go on and dream about whatever you need to dream about
and come back to me when you know just how you feel
i can feel you near me even though you're far away
i can feel you baby
why

11:30 pm
ilovedjason

Thursday, November 06, 2008

nadiah!! let's get katy perry!!! we'll memorise the lyrics and sing it at work. ahahahahahahaha. i'll see you tomorrow and we can sing it's tearin' up my heart.

i was high on coke light at work just now. i just had a sip and i was singing and laughing. making stupid jokes. maybe it's the effects of mixing coke and tiredness. jun and nabila thinks the songs i sang were sad. hahaha. as if i was depressed or something. hahahahahahahaha.

it's tearing up my heart
when i'm with you
but when we are apart
i feel it too
and no matter what i do
i feel the pain
with or without you

1:04 am
ilovedjason

Tuesday, November 04, 2008

tomorrow - avril lavigne

and i wanna believe you
when you tell me that it'll be okay
yeah i try to believe you
but i don't
when you say that it's gonna be
it always turns out to be a different way
i try to believe you
not today
i don't know how i'll feel
tomorrow, tomorrow
i don't know what to say
tomorrow, tomorrow
is a different day
it's always been up to you
it's turning around
it's up to me
i'm gonna do what i have to do
just don't
gimme a little time
leave me alone a little while
maybe it's not too late
not today
and i know i'm not ready
maybe tomorrow
and i wanna believe you
when you tell me that it'll be okay
yeah i try to believe you
not today
tomorrow it may change...

5:59 pm
ilovedjason

Sunday, November 02, 2008

RUSSELL PETERS BABY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

okay. nadiah's ignoring me online. chatting with filz. said goodnight to farhan. and lanxi suggested to write a feedback form to ljs. my eyelids are drooping and i'm working morning tomorrow. and the stupid walk through is freaking tomorrow. why can't she just stay rooted in aussie??

i've been listening to avril lately. and i fell in love with tomorrow.

okay i think i wanna sleep already. gotta work tomorrow.

i'm out of ideas for presents. HELP!!!!!!

11:48 pm
ilovedjason