Wednesday, August 02, 2006

it's odd how i was caught in an online intervention. caught offguard. i was seriously okay with everything. i'm serious. haiz.

training was fun. first time i ran on the treadmill for ten minutes at speed 9. seesh. i was gasping for air. should train more running. if sara knows my weight now, he'll kill me. hahaha. no lah. after we did some cooling down, we joked around. laughed my ass off. hahaha. sakit perut. wanted to eat PH. but was offered free food. ate twice. haha.

i already accepted the fact. but you brought it up. old wounds open up. sure i can't understand it. but i already accepted the sad fact. you can't expect that i won't change after something like this happens. twice. if i were to be always cheery, always nice, then wouldn't i be pretending? living in denial? i don't think i can't fully revert to my old self.

story of my life
searching for the right
but it keeps avoiding me
sorrow in my soul
cause it seems that wrong
really loves my company
i don't wanna do this anymore
i don't wanna be the reason why

10:28 pm
ilovedjason

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