Sunday, October 16, 2005
i was born on 17 of october in the year 1987. on a saturday morning at 0809. so according to the time now, i still have a few more hours at being a 17year old. and then after i can legally watch m18 movies, smoke, drink and have sex. but i would never do the middle two things. and it will be sometime before i will actually have sex. i mean. i want to get married first. hamizah, if only brad pitt would marry me. hehe. but hell, by the time i want to get married he'll in his mid-40s. eeee nvm.
so i want to sum up my 17th year on earth.
i started it off by having a non-existent relationship with someone. i was honestly sad that it couldn't have lasted longer. and i'm truly sorry that ignored him. i guess it just took us too long to get where we were. but looking at us now. we have both since moved on. speaking of moving on. i think i fell in like with amer. like at first sight. he had so big an impact on me that i still have feelings for this amer. and i know nuts about BGR. and then 2005 came. my bestfriends and i were not spending enough time with other. we rarely saw each other. but every time i saw them, they would ask me about him. and every time i would avoid. i finished my first year in poly. sometime during the start of my second year in poly, i started to like another guy. only a handful know who. complicated stuff. by june 05, i think my bestfriends and i have been spending more time. got to know alot more peeps through the fb camp. and saw more of EVSS peeps around in campus. and then august 05, someone i haven't seen a long time reentered my life. my friend, zaf. she visited singapore for 2 weeks. and sadly i only went out with her once. haiz. maybe i should go to london. haha. and nothing big has happen to me since. okay. let me rephrase that. nothing big has ever happen to me before.
i hope to let my guard down. i hope to voice out more on how i really feel.
dee. su. my bestest bestfriends. in the whole wide world. firstly, aku nak cakap. I LOVE YOU GIRLS VERY MUCH. korang bring the laughter out in me when i really need it. thanx. dee, i'm happy for you. kau should take this chance and go for it. and su will back me up on this. su, i'm happy if you're happy. and there are reasons why i won't talk to him. heeehee. raye nak dekat. and dee's bdae is coming real soon. su, kite takya belikan dee prezzie ah. since ngah raye ni, dapat duit raye banyak. haha. love you. thanx for being my bestfriends.
okay. this has somehow been a weird entry. anyhoo. thanx for reading it.
wish you could be here
on this special day
but you're not.
9:17 pm
ilovedjason