Tuesday, July 05, 2005

u're pulling off bits and bits of me slowly..and this is causing me to die slowly and painfully..i don't wanna hurt no more..don't wanna hurt becoz of u..too many tears have rained my cheeks becoz of u..but wat can i do to forget u?? wat can i tell myself to make me forget u..?? tell me wat i shld do..coz im at my wit's end..and already i can't tink straight..and this is all becoz of u..this overwhelming lust for u shld end..immediately..

so ain finally noe her zain's name..its amin..thanx alot hamzy..now she crazy already..smiling anywhere..juz tinking abt her zain..wahaha..i prefer calling him zain..i tink used to it..

do u peeps how it feels to wait for something for a year?? and then when u finally get it..u realise that u don't feel any satisfaction from it..it made u feel empty..more troubled than before..i've had this feeling before..there wasn't any real closure..and i made the matter worse..this has made a huge gap between my friends..and him..i really didn't think it thru..i made a rash decision..and this caused big probs..i've hurt some peeps..and i haven't even said sorry..but when i say sorry to u..will u accept it?? when i tell u the reason why..will u hate me even more?? but i dunno how to face u..after all this..it'll be hard..

maybe this is reason why i've been putting on a happy mask..for the past year..i was never truly happy even though i seem to be..

easier than done....

ciao

10:22 pm
ilovedjason

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