fragmentsofagirl.

Sunday, February 27, 2005

white flag by dido..i love this song..as i've done a few times lately..this song is for the guy i liked..this guy..we'll call him 'amer' k..haha..i've liked amer for sometime..so..hmm..i juz tink i shld juz tell him how i feel..but......

I know you think that I shouldn't still love you or tell you that
But if I didn't say it well I'd still have felt it, where's the sense in that
I promise I'm not trying to make your life harder
Or return to where we were

But I will go down with this ship and I won't put my hands up and surrender
There will be no white flag above my door,
I'm in love and always will be

I know I left too much mess and destruction to come back again
And I caused but nothing but trouble,
I understand if you can't talk to me again
And if you live by the rules of "it's over" then I'm sure that that makes sense

But I will go down with this ship and I won't put my hands up and surrender
There will be no white flag above my door,
I'm in love and always will be

And when we meet, which I'm sure we will
All that was there, will be there still
I'll let it pass, and hold my tongue
And you will think, that I've moved on....

I will go down with this ship and I won't put my hands up and surrender
There will be no white flag above my door,
I'm in love and always will be

I will go down with this ship and I won't put my hands up and surrender
There will be no white flag above my door,
I'm in love and always will be

I will go down with this ship and I won't put my hands up and surrender
There will be no white flag above my door,

I'm in love and always will be

7:07 pm
ilovedjason

Friday, February 25, 2005

bila rindu - ruffedge

dikeheningan malam
termenungku berseorang
tak lena mata dipejam
terdengar suara terngiang
suara merdu yang disayang
bagai kau didepan mata
ku capai tapi kenal
sukarnya memendam rasa
inginku luahkan kata

bila rindu
terkenang mu sayang
terasa sayu
syahdunya jiwaku bila malam
makin kelam
jauh terbang diriku melayang
aku rindu sentuhanmu
kurasa sayu
inginkan jiwamu selubungi jiwa ini
bawaku dalam pelangi
melepasi segala hati ini

jauh anganku lena
ku rasa kita bersama
kau bawa daku kesana
ke alam kisah yang lama
kenangan di dalam jiwa
bila tersedar semula
disisiku kau tiada
sukarnya ku pendam rasa
ingin ku luahkan semua

bila rindu
terkenangmu sayang terasa sayu
syahdunya jiwaku bila malam
makin kelam
jauh terbang diriku melayang
aku rindu sentuhanmu
ku rasa sayu
inginkan jiwamu selubungi jiwa ini
bawaku dalam pelangi
melepasi segala hati ini

sesunguhnya kita mestilah
wujudkan sefahaman dan hormatmu
hormati, ikhlas, kasih
makin tak ada, bertemu semula

awan yang mencas semesta
menyampaikan pesan kesunyian kanda sendiri
kesepian yang menyelubungi hari-hariku
disajikan doa-doaku kerana rindu
yang menantikan kau datang dan pergi seperti mimpi-mimpiku, fantasiku
bukan dongeng lagi sayup kedengaran
disisi cuping, disetiap corong, lorong yang lohong
benar! ku tak bohong bila hati menyanyi

bila rindu
terkenang mu siang terasa sayu
syahdunya jiwaku bila malam
makin kelam
ooohh ohh oo
aku merindu
sentuhan mu ku rasa sayu
inginkan jiwa selubungi jiwa ini
bawa ku dlm pelangi
melepasi batas
oh
bila rindu
terkenang mu sayang
ku terasa sayu
syahdunya jiwaku bila malam
makin kelam
jauh terbang diriku melayang
aku rindu sentuhan mu ku rasa sayu(ku rindukan sentuhanmu)
inginkan jiwamu selubungi jiwa ini
bawa ku dlm pelangi
melepasi batas diri ini

i dedicate this song to that guy..hmm..

8:40 pm
ilovedjason

yesterday i typed so much for my post..and then the damned server logged me out..urgh!! aniwaes..juz now skool..my class 1B/02 of dcse..is finally getting some work done on our bungalow..hehe..after months..we finally gonna have the attic up..on monday we will cast the concrete..other classes have already moved on to their attics..one class have even finished their bungalow..and their bungalow is beautifully done..the floors are straight..not like ours..today i finally feel we had the teamwork..yeah..tmr insya'allah going to johor wif the family..due to the recent konsert solo; ruffedge..i've been listening to them..and i had their cd since last year thanx to yani..[thanx yan for lending me the cd..] i fell in love with their song Bila Rindu..it's a ballad which has the ruffedge's rNb feel to it..i introduced the song to ain..and when she and ham watched the konsert solo thing on tuesday night..they too also fell absolutely in love with the song..heehee..ain kept asking me..mal how's the tune huh?? she kept humming the tune of some lullaby..heehee..aniwaes..look out for the lyric..ciao

8:15 pm
ilovedjason

Thursday, February 24, 2005

yesterday we finished skool at 3..nothing to do so we decided to go out..thought for awhile to go where..at last decided on junction 8..ain lah ni..ckp best..abeh smue agree..abeh kat north lak tu..ish ish..aniwaes..walked around jap..dah rase lapar baru gi carik makan..carik nye carik long john..abeh 'terselit' kat blakang..bersembunyi die..hehe..but in the end decided to eat at kfc..apasal?? murah..si wan ade the staff discount..while eating..ternampak lak si yan ngan girlfriend die..haha..took neos again..ain ah ni..nak amek gambar je..

juz now skool started at 8..haiz..takpe..it was ESS class..my fave class..PEEPS WHO ARE TAKING GEMs..TRY TO TAKE ESS..IT'S THE BEST MODULE YOU CAN ASK FOR!!! got another test next week..on conversational skills..so fun..u are asked to talk to get ur marks..hehe..and this module has really helped me improved my speaking skills..i can speak more...errr.....'polytone-ly'..hahahahahha..haiz..then there was math..i don't my math lecturers this sem..both of them can't get out attention..well at least me for sure..for Oc we had to watch the video of us presenting..haiz..my voice really sound weird on air..sheesh..looking forward to the group presentation..heeeheee..intech was okay..learning flash animation now..trying to adapt to it..ooooh ya..i got my results already..so far failed SM only..and i failed badly..as usual..many careless mistakes..and i knew i was gonna fail this paper because i wasn't really prepared..and this is the first SM paper im failing..i hope i don't do this bad for the finals..hmm..kinda surprised i passed my math..after all that not paying attention..i still pass..even in this paper i did have some careless mistakes..tut ah..but the topics were easy..the next test will focus more on differentiation and integration..shit ah..can't wait for my cadded marks..hehe..wanna see how much i got..

okay..my title said my clumsy day..hmm..actually it shld say my clumsy dayS..juz now i said we were tinking of where to go after skool right?? so..while we were doing our thinking..we were walking down the red staircase at SP..some of us were laughing because wan has a fly on his hair..that some of us is me, yan and kk i tink..so i was laughing happily..and then i slipped on the step..luckily yan and kk was next to me..i held on to them..awwwwww..my knights in their shining armour..BWEKKKK!! and then THEY were laughing at ME..sheesh..but i took it all in stride..hehe..so funny..luckily never tergolek down the stairs..malu sia..even while at junction 8..i was tripped upon this thing sticking out from the floor..some shutter thing..sheesh..and then today..when coming out of the media lab after OC..i slipped on the slope..now i tink i shld lift up my feet when im walking in my lady slippers..so slippery..lesson learnt..

on tuesday watched the ruffedge konsert solo..haiz..like i said..im falling in lust wif amer..haiz..ciao

8:07 pm
ilovedjason

Tuesday, February 22, 2005

berhenti berharap - sheila on 7

aku tak percaya lagi
dengan apa yang kau beriaku terdampar di sini
tersudut menunggu mati
aku tak percaya lagi
akan guna matahari
yang dulu mampu terangi
sudut gelap hati ini
aku berhenti berharap
dan menunggu datang gelap sampai nanti suatu saat
tak ada cinta kudapat
kenapa ada derita
bila bahagia tercipta
kenapa ada sang hitam
bila putih menyenangkan
oh...

Chorus:
aku pulang...tanpa dendam
kuterima.. kekalahanku
aku pulang...tanpa dendam
kusalutkan.. kemenanganmu

bridge:
kau ajarkan aku bahagia
kau ajarkan aku derita
kau tunjukkan aku bahagia
kau tunjukkan aku derita
kau berikan aku bahagia
kau berikan aku derita

8:37 pm
ilovedjason

weeeeeeeeeee...im finally updating..oooookay..i shall start wif sunday..i was supposed to go FB training..but my father didn't let me..don't ask me why..we weren't even gonna go out that day..urgh!! i can't understand fathers..urgh!!so instead i went out wif dee..ingatkan nak tgk wayang..tapi si dee ni lak nak gi johor afterwards..so we had to cut short our outing..[fuyo the moon is full and beautiful tonight!!!!!!!!!] on monday..hmm..it felt as if that yesterday was the first in many weeks that i've gone to skool..padahal its only been two weeks..after skool went out wif ain..bought skirts at this fashion..my new skirt is so pretty..its black and the material..hard to describe..i love my new skirt..i watched desperate housewives..new show..can't wait for the next episode..heehee..today..hmm..nothing much really happened ah..juz the usual skool day..had to do something different for cadded..muz draw..haiz..i prefered drawing using the comp because it was easier and u don't have to worry about the little details..like if u draw the damned thing urself..u have to take note of the font size..make sure it's at a certain height..2.5mm..can u believe it?? if we wanna dimension the stoopid thing..we can't like press the pencil too hard onto the paper..the pencil line cannot be too dark..urgh..whatever..but i have to admit..it was kinda fun to draw it firsthand..i mean it's like a challenge..and when the drawing comes full circle..its so neat..heehee..i have this thing for organised, neat stuff and planning..so fun..heehee..yesterday had the first look of the makeover pics we took last wednesday..we all looked so pretty in our made up face..and juz now during cadded class..well..we weren't supposed to be surfing the net but i did anyway..i went to the manhunt webbie..manhunt is a reality show to find america's top male model..hoohoo..the winner is so HOT!! i was clicking on the thumbnails showing his portfolio..i noe in my mind that the guys were doing nude shots for the last photoshoot..so when i was clicking away on the thumbnail..i didn't realise that i was clicking on the nude shot one..but of course they didn't reveal anything that's not supposed to be revealed..juz like ANTM..anyhow..i love the eyes on the winner..i felt like as if he's looking at me..haha..and he's here in singapore for now..woohoo!! the american idol guys performed okay juz..the first performance was good..hmm..i wanna see the girls perform..but i have to say this..some of the guys' performances were juz to predictable..so expected of them..got a couple of rockers..woohoo..i wanna see how they fair[fare or fair?] in the competition..can't wait for the finals though..gonna watch manhunt later coz the eye candy are juz hard to pass..sleep come later..heehee..aniwaes..this it for now..ciao..

8:31 pm
ilovedjason

Saturday, February 19, 2005

i love this song by mariah carey..title is my all..love it love it..i dedicate this song to that guy..

I am thinking of you
In my sleepless solitude tonight
If it's wrong to love you
Then my heart just won't let me be right
'Cause I've drowned in you
And I won't pull through
Without you by my side

Chorus:
I'd give my all to have
Just one more night with you
I'd risk my life to feel
Your body next to mine
'cause I can't let go on
Living in the memory of your song
I'd give my all for your love tonight

Baby can you feel me
Imagining I'm looking in your eyes
I can see you clearly
Vividly emblazoned in my mind
And yet you're so far
Like a distant star
I'm wishing on tonight

Chorus

** Guitar Break

Chorus
Give my all for your love
Tonight

7:41 pm
ilovedjason

ANYONE WIF SHEILA ON 7 AND/OR PETERPAN CDs PLEASE LET ME NOE..I WANNA BORROW IF ITS POSSIBLE..THANK YOU..REPLY ON MY TAGBOARD YA..

7:33 pm
ilovedjason

eee yuck..this white chewing gum im eating sux..bwekk bwekk..shld've never bought it..aniwaes..my mummy bought for me the original version of eiffel im in love..hamizah..if u want i copy it for u?? deeeeeeeeeee...bile nak kluar?? dah lame kite tak kluar juz the two of us..haiz..aku pun dah lame tak tgk wayang..i have free tix..haiz..im bored..ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!! why? why? why? ciao

2:42 pm
ilovedjason

Friday, February 18, 2005

i kinda have this crush on this guy i know..hmm..u peeps won't noe his name unless i've told u already..only my besties and c.mateys noe..haiz..i missed my chance..i tink he's like dating someone now..haiz..and now im trying to talk myself into getting over him..i kinda miss him though..haha..i don't like seeing him wif the girl..it sux big time..gotta get over it..i don't what song to describe this feeling..so i'll juz tink of something..okay got it..lose myself by jc chasez..its long..but i love it..

She loves daffodils, and
She keeps 'em on her window sill
When the wind blows her smell fills the room
She dreams in color
But does she know that I love her?
I'm swimming in my abyss of insecure blue, yeah
And I'm losing my head
And I can't get no sleep (No sleep)
But if I reached out (Reached out)
Would you reach out for me, yeah
Knocked unconcious, walking on water
Cause I'm thinking of you (Thinking of you, thinking of you)
And don't you know that love's intoxicating and I need the abuse (Need the abuse)
Because I'm endlessly falling
And we're destiny calling what you're making me do (Destiny calling what you're making me do)
It's all because I lose myself in you
All because I lose myself in you
I don't wanna be invisible (Invisible)
I just wanna be compatible
Longing for something that can only be filled by you, yeah
Cause I'm fighting with my confidence (Confidence)
Build up my courage, give myself a chance
Because the only thing I think about is you
Do you know that I'm here?
Do I even exist?
I'd dance on velvet skies
For just the thought of one kiss, yeah
Knocked unconcious, walking on water
Cause I'm thinking of you (Thinking of you, thinking of you)
And don't you know that love's intoxicating and I need the abuse (Need the abuse)
Because I'm endlessly falling
And we're destiny calling what you're making me do (Destiny calling what you're making me do)
It's all because I lose myself in you
All because I lose myself in you
I see the beauty in your strength, baby
And you fight to keep it in you, yea
But I break down your walls (Break down your walls)
With my army of love (Army of love)
Take a journey through my heart
It's a test of fate (Test of fate)
As we hold each other close our spirits gravitate (Gravitate)
Let's drift into forever
As our boundaries melt away
Thinking of you, thinking of you, thinking of you
Oh...I found myself intoxicated by this drug
Sent to my knees cause I'm addicted to your love
All because I lose myself in you
All because I lose myself in you
All because I lose, I lose myself in you
All because I lose myself in you
If you share with me
Then I'll find you
And I'll meet you there,
Down in nowhere
If you share with me
Then I'll find you
And I'll meet you there,
Down in nowhere
Baby my life is yours
Just open up the door
I can't believe I found you, yeah-yeah
'Cause if you share with me
Then I'll find you
And I'll meet you there,
Down in nowhere
Down in nowhere
Yeah-yeah, oh
Lose myself, yeah
Yeah...Oh...

11:31 pm
ilovedjason

v-day has come and gone..and i wondered if i was going to spend it wif anyone special..ain was kinda harping me abt it..she kept saying, 'MaL, i want a rose..'..well u got something..from ur guy friend..haha..aniwaes..like my title says..have u ever wondered what ur dream guy would be like? [tag me wif ur opinions ya..for the guys..tag me ur dream girl..] so here is my list...

he has to have a bod like usher or tom welling
ooze mystery like adam levine, keanu reeves
nice brown hair like orlando bloom
the easy charm of orly too..
a singing voice like adam's or jc chasez
mild geekiness like adam brody
the colour of melted chocolate like orly..
a nice brit accent would be nice

haiz..one can only wonder..ciao

7:34 pm
ilovedjason

Wednesday, February 16, 2005

i love this song..an old song..sung by the jackson 5..michael jackson and his bros..i first listened to it when i was like 6 i tink..haha..i remembered it all these years..and even mariah carey and her then husband did a cover on it..

i'll be there - jackson 5

You and i must make a pact, we must bring salvation back
Where there is love, i'll be there
I'll reach out my hand to you, i'll have faith in all you do
Just call my name and i'll be there
I'll be there to comfort you,
Build my world of dreams around you, i'm so glad that i found you
I'll be there with a love that's strong
I'll be your strength, i'll keep holding on
Let me fill your heart with joy and laughter
Togetherness, well that's all i'm after
Whenever you need me, i'll be there
I'll be there to protect you, with an unselfish love that respects you
Just call my name and i'll be there
If you should ever find someone new, i know he'd better be good to you'cause if he doesn't, i'll be there
Don't you know, baby, yeah yeah
I'll be there, i'll be there, just call my name, i'll be there(just look over your shoulders, honey - oo)
I'll be there, i'll be there, whenever you need me, i'll be there
Don't you know, baby, yeah yeah
I'll be there, i'll be there, just call my name, i'll be there...

9:50 pm
ilovedjason

i had this free make-over thing by red earth..well..it was more like a 'we' rather than an 'i'..the charlie's angelz..that's me, ain, ham..we had the free make-over thing..we got it by buying SEVENTEEN mag at kino..ain calls it kuni..ape je..haha..aniwaes.along wif this free make-over thing..we got a free tube of lipstick and eyeshadow..i like the lipstick because it doesn't really show..nice shade of pink..so..back to the make-over..we made the appointment to have it at junction 8..we were debating who goes first..pasal malu nak go first..but in the end..ain jugak yg kene..haha..i was next and ham last..haha..the woman asked me what colour eyeshadow i wanted..she listed some colours and i thought that green would be nice..since i also liked the colour..she also said i shld use a scrub every now and then..i took her advice and wif recommendations from ain and ham, i bought a scrub juz now..ain and ham suggested st. ives because even though its expensive..it was a worthy splurge..i've never heard of a gold eyeliner until today..and the eyeliner at red earth is kinda cool..haha..when removing it juz now..i realised that it was like a glue..peel it off slowly..and juz now when the woman asked me if a brown lipstick was okay..i admit ah..i was quite alarmed because what if the lipstick made me look old..but after the whole thing was over..i really liked that look..absolutely loved it..i had green/yellow eyeshadow..some blush to accentuate my cheekbones..do i even have it?? and of course the brown lipstick glazed wif lipgloss..the base of the make-up also made my skin looked fairer..after that..we took some neos..and pics on hamz' camera..she will soon get it ready..can't wait for the pics..i tink after this..im gonna invest more on face products..did a li'l shopping juz now..bought a fox tee for $7..haha..cheap huh?!? so tmr is my last paper before the BIG EXAMS at the end of march..cadded to me was indeed easy..for the first time..i finished my cadded paper..but not all was completely done..tmr's paper is OC..one of my fave subjects..after this test..i tink i better start on my presentations..3 in all..so i guess term 4 will be a more hectic time for me..sheesh..all this for a piece of white paper..hmm..but nvm..like the old peeps say..this IS for our own good..the old peeps im referring to are the parents..aniwaes..i tink im gonna read my book now..since stoopid friendster can't log me in..and my fucking msn can't freaking work..so i've blogged..now i wanna read..ciao..

9:48 pm
ilovedjason

Tuesday, February 15, 2005

fallen by mya..

Verse 1
You complete me
Like air & water boy I need thee
And when I'm in your arms I feel free, fallen
My head's up in the clouds
In love, I'm proud to say it loud
Like an accident it happened
Outta nowhere it just happened
And I ain't mad at all because...

Chorus (2x)
I've fallen...head over heels
I've fallen....in love with you
I've fallen... and I can't get up
Don't wanna get up because of love

Verse 2
Baby to let you get away is crazy
So I'm doin' what it takes
To make you pledge your love to me
You see, 'cause I'm trying to be your lady
Forever and ever baby
The picture wouldn't be the same
If you weren't standing next to me
Can't you see I've fallen

Repeat Chorus (2x)

Bridge
You compliment me, not an accessory
You're necessary
Whenever this big bad world scares me
You're there with me yeah
Security, are you here with me
You're my happiness my joy
I smile because of you boy
I look forward to the time I spend with you
Whatever it is we do
'Cause I've fallen for you boy
Yeah, Yeah, Yeah
Fallen
I've fallen for you boy
Head over heels for you
So in love with you
In love, for you

Touch me, touch me
Hold me, hold me
Love me, love me
Kiss me, in love with you
Talk to me, talk to me
Caress me, lay with me
Don't want to get up, explore me
You're my everything

Repeat Chorus (6x)

9:42 pm
ilovedjason

so juz now i had my intech test..i was so gabra..haha..juz now si bodoh nye teacher..si bunge tu..citot..gi mampus ah..merajuk..bitch..its so fucking clear that we DON'T like ur stoopid class..abeh nak pin-point sape2 yg tak suke datang class bodoh die..diam ah..this juz shows that u're not an interesting teacher..hah! yesterday was the grammys..usher and alicia keys performed separately..i was hoping they would perform my boo..but usher's caught up performance was mind blowing..fuyo!! it was HOT!! alicia keys performance was emo..she sang wif full of emo..loved it..prodigal singer..did i spell it correctly?? haha..hmm..tmr is the red earth make-over that the 3 of us is going..can't wait..haha..hamz..if u reading this tonight..BRING UR CAMERA TMR!! hell..i shld be doing my cadded now..tmr's the goddamned test..juz hope that my memory doesn't fail me..haiz.. :)

2:58 pm
ilovedjason

Monday, February 14, 2005

one of my fave songs..its from backstreet boys..my first boyband that i really liked..so yeah..here it is..enjoy..[juz something to describe love..]

All I Have To Give

I don't know what he does to make you cry
but I'll be there to make you smile
I don't have a fancy car
to get to you I'd walk a thousand miles
I don't care if he buys you nice things
Does his gifts come from the heart ? - I don't know...
But if you were my girl...
I'd make it so we'd never be apart
Chorus
But my love is all I have to give
Without you I don't think I can live
I wish I could give the world to you... but
Love is all I have to give
When you talk, does it seem like he's not
even listening to a word you say ?
That's ok babe, just tell me your problems
I'll try my best to kiss them all away...
Does he leave when you need him the most?
Does his friends get all your time ?
Baby please, I'm on my knees
praying for the day that you'll be mine !!
Chorus
Bridge
To you... Hey girl, I don't want you to cry no more - inside
All the money in the world could never add up to the love
I have inside...
I love you
Bass Break
And I will give it to you
All I can give, all I can give
Everything I have is for you
But love is all I have to give
Drum Break
Chorus(x3)
and out
But my love is all I have to give
without you I don't think I can live
I wish I could give the world to you... but
Love is all I have to give to you

2:31 pm
ilovedjason

Sunday, February 13, 2005

my usual sunday..had training..but today training started abit later..at 3..haha..me and sal went back at around 5..haha..the weelky routine of drinking 100+ was not forgotten..eunice didn't come today..for the second time this year..the girls attendance was better than the guys..haha..juz finished watching BI$NES..my good friend, syam was on it..too bad his group didn't win..but hey..that's why its called competition..org melayu kate adat pertandingan..for every winner there will be a loser..haha..aniwaes my tests starts tmr..my most 2 important tests are tmr..fuck..Emath and SM..and i have not revised a single fucking thing on SM..fish ah..tmr is also V-Day..a day to celebrate love/friendship all around..

V-Day shouldn't be juz about celebrating BGR..it should be a day about celebrating ur friendships..haha..to all my friends..happy V-Day..to my bestfriends..i love u girls..

ciao

9:44 pm
ilovedjason

u guys remember that song..sung by brandy and monica?? the boy is mine..well..i was on my way home from FB juz now..and was listening to Class 95..they were playing this song..kinda bring back memories..and it kinda applied to my situation not so long ago..so here it is..

The Boy Is Mine

Brandy- Excuse me, can I please talk to you for a minute
Monica- uh huh, sure, you know you look kinda familiar
Brandy- Yeah, you do too but, umm, I just wanted to know do you know
somebody named you,
you know his name.
Monica - Oh, yeah definitely I know his name.
Brandy - I just wanted to let you know he's mine.
Monica - Huh..no no, he's mine.

Chorus 1:You need to give it up.
Had about enough.
It's not hard to see,the boy is mine.

Brandy - I think it's time we got this straight,
let's sit and talk face to face.
There is no way you could mistake him for your man
Are you insane?

Monica - See I know that you may be just a bit jealous of me.
Cause' you're blind if you can't see that his love is all in me.

Brandy - See I tried to hesitate,
I didn't want to say what he told me.
He said without mehe couldn't make it through the day,
ain't that a shame.

Monica - And maybe you misunderstood,
Plus I can't see how he could wanna take his time and that's all good.
All of my love was all it took

Chorus 2:
The boy is mine.
You need to give it up.
Had about enough.
It's not hard to see, the boy is mine.
I'm sorry that you seem to be confused.
He belongs to me
The boy is mine.

Monica - Must you do the things you do
Keep on acting like a fool
You need to know it's me not you
And if you didn't know it girl it's true.

Brandy - I think that you should realize,
And try to understand why
He is a part of my life
I know it's killing you inside.

Monica - You can say what you wanna say.
What we have you can't take.
From the truth you can't escape.
I can tell the real from the fake.

Brandy - When will you get the picture.
You're the past, I'm the future
Get away it's my time to shine
if you didn't know the boy is mine.

Chorus 2

Monica - You can't destroy this love I've found
Your silly games I won't allow
The boy is mine without a doubt
You might as well throw in the towel

Brandy - What makes you think that he wants you,
when I'm the one that brought him to
The special place that's in my heart,
he was my love right from the start

Chorus 2

Brandy: He belongs to me (sang in chorus)
Monica: The boy is mine, not yours (after chorus)
Brandy: But mine!
Monica: Not yours!
Brandy: But mine!
Monica: Not yours!
Brandy: But mine!I'm sorry that you seem to be confused.
He belongs to me the boy is mine.

8:32 pm
ilovedjason

Saturday, February 12, 2005

yesterday..went to johor wif hamizah and kak nish..reached there at around 2..ate at sushi king..haiz..it was a first for me..and it was a good and memorable experience..had a lot of the raw salmon ones..yum!! then walked around city square to digest the food..wanted to watch constatine but the show already full..kalau nak tgk muz watch in front..if like that, then muz crane ur neck juz to watch the movie..i've always liked keanu reeves..he was hot in SPEED..haiz..what's wif guys wif dark hair and broody eyes?? maybe its because the ooze this msyterious appeal that i like..haha..if only there guys like that in singapore..are there?? tell me ya..i wanna noe and find them..adam brody, adam levine..and of course keanu reeves..these are the few that i can tink of..orlando bloom?? hmm..he has dark brown hair..dark brown eyes..it reminds so much of chocolates..so yummy..haiz..aniwaes..went to study some math juz now..finally..now only need to practise my SM..sheesh..oh ya..before i forget..i can't use my MSN Messenger temporarily..until my comp is given a new hope of life..then maybe i can use the MSN..now i can't even check my emails..f*ck sia..

ciao..

10:32 pm
ilovedjason

Friday, February 11, 2005

have any of u watched the movie zorro? starring antonio banderas and catherine zeta jones and sir anthony hopkins?? well..the original soundtrack from the movie is so beautiful..so here it is..sung by marc anthony and tina arena

Moon so bright, night so fine
Keep your heart here with mine
Life's a dream we are dreaming

Race the moon, catch the wind
Ride the night to the end
Seize the day, stand up for the light

I want to spend my lifetime loving you
If that is all in life I ever do

Heroes rise, heroes fall
Rise again, win it all
In your heart, can't you feel the glory?

Through our joy, through our pain
We can move worlds again
Take my hand, dance with me

I want to spend my lifetime loving you
If that is all in life I ever do
I will want nothing else to see me through
If I can spend my lifetime loving you

Though we know we will never come again
Where there is love, life begins
Over and over again

Save the night, save the day
Save the love, come what may
Love is worth everything we pay

10:15 pm
ilovedjason

well here i am in skool..supposed to study..tapi si ain ni takde mood..haiz..so now temaning her to play comp..and i can finally check my email without asking dee to check it for me..hmm..later im going to johor wif hamizah and mak su..but i call her kak nish..going there in celebration of hamizah's bdae..HAPPY 19TH BIRTHDAY!! haiz..i juz turned 17 and this girl has already turned 19..she's gonna gloat to me abt being 19..but nvm..she's older..im still young..muahaha..i tink im gonna be forever young!! haha..kiddding..aniwaes its friday already..so freaking fast..juz last week i was waiting for friday to come..and now..another friday has come..the days are going to so fast..and soon..i'll be in my 2nd year..haiz..and i'll have juniors..haha..but first things first..i have to pass my exams..so i have to stop slacking now and start studying..haiz..i wonder when will i get serious abt my studies?? my tests are next week and i haven't started on a single thing yet..tmr hopefully will study my math..haiz..but..kat rumah ain..wonder if we can get anything done..haha..distractions distractions..and i have presentations to complete and practise..3 presentations..haiz..im so not looking forward to my CRS presentation..its a debate..i mean i like to argue and stuff..but debate is a planned arguement..and i don wanna cock this up..haha..aniwaes..shld enjoy the last of my first year..next year, i noe, will be more hectic than this year..my arms are so tanned right now..its even darker than ain's..haha..sorry ain..if im in my natural colour..ain will be darker than me..haha..but don fret..my 'tan' will disappear within months..haha..

im tinking of doing something to my posts..everyday i will try to find a song that describes my day..so yesterday it was pulangkan by misha omar..a malay song that i have come to like by watching the movie pontianak harum sundal malam..the song itself will scare the hell out of my bro..haha..today?? im not so sure..will tink abt it.. :)

10:26 am
ilovedjason

Thursday, February 10, 2005

pulangkan - misha omar

seharum bunga yang menggoda
sekadar dipandang usah dipuja
kau pasti tak percaya
kasihku bukan
untukmu sayang

tiada ku sangka
kau sungguh kejam
kau rampas segala
yang kau dendam
namun takkan bahagia kehidupanmu
bila bunyi bersatu
kau milikku

pulangkan cinta hatiku
oh hentikanlah menghantuiku
pulangkan oh pulangkanlah padaku
ku pulangkan kesan hidupmu
yang dikau musnah tanpa relaku
bebaskanlah maafkan daku oh kasih

tiada kemaafan disini
kau ragut degupan hatiku ini
akan ku jejakimu ke mana jua
hingga akhir masa
sayang..

oh...pulangkan cinta hatiku
oh hentikanlah menghantuiku
oh pulangkan oh pulangkan padaku
ku pulangkan kesan hidupmu
yang dikau musnah tanpa relaku
bebaskanlah maafkan daku oh kasih

tiada kemaafan disini
kau ragut degupan hatiku ini
akan ku jejakimu ke mana jua
hingga akhir masa
sayang.......

8:54 pm
ilovedjason

im so bored today..stayed at home..again..tmr i tink im going to the library..its so long..hamizah..if u're reading this..when wanna go out?? i need to go out seriously..but..my father..is one case..stoopid curfews are laid upon me..that sux..i need freedom..not complete freedom..i don't tink i can handle that..i juz need some freedom..to practise my self discipline..fuck ar..urgh!! sometimes i juz tink that running away is a good idea, u noe..and i can't wait to be on my own..live on my own..im defiinitely looking forward to studying abroad if my results allow it..so i can be FREE!! woohoo..im like living in a prison..FISH!! aniwaes im grateful that i can still go out and see my friends..

ciao

8:34 pm
ilovedjason

Wednesday, February 09, 2005

i stayed home today..watched the amazing race the finale as soon as i woke up..i wanted either adam/rebecca or kris/jon to win..but nooo..the other idiot team won..sheesh..aniwaes..slept thru the most of the day..im so bored right now..nothing to do..hmm..V-Day's juz around the corner..can't wait to celebrate it with my classmates..we're exchanging gifts..i hope that happens..the sentosa trip planned happened..and it was fun..the SP Rugby team was there too..hahaha..such a coincidence..back to V-Day..the guy i liked..hmm..the most recent crush..haiz..too bad he's spending it with another girl.. :(

happy chinese new year to all my chinese friends..

ciao

8:51 pm
ilovedjason

Sunday, February 06, 2005

so juz now i went to FB..as usual for training..had camp meeting first..so excited now..the camp chief is shamil and the assistant is dzaf..she will also be our vice captain..kinda knew that she was gonna be it..haha..for FB warm up we did some PT..and having not done any for the past 1 1/2 year..i got tired real easy..we did push-ups, crunches [my fave], burpees and jumping jacks [my fave too]..now my knees are kinda like aching..same with my arm joints..haiz..need to exercise more..for the first time since IVP training, we trained wif juz the girls..so fun..played games..my line scored two goals if im not wrong..haha..so happy..tmr is monday..finally..monday has come!! can't wait to rollerblade again..its been a long time..hamz..if u're reading this..confirm eh rollerblading tmr..haha..fish ah..my stoopid comp can't use the f*cking msn..fish fish fish..i wanted to go online and confirm everything with everyone abt tmr..my comp is on the verge of dying..orang melayu kate..tengah nazak..its slowly dying..watched bi$nes..they had the recaps..can't believe there are so many controversy behind the scenes..my mummy had been telling me that my uncle, midzi, that his girlfriend is also on the show..hmm..can't wait for tmr!!

10:00 pm
ilovedjason

i never could imagine, life without you
from the moment you walked into my world
never knew how long a loving flame could burn
but losing you has forced to me to learn
that we can't change the way we feel inside
and every try at love never turns out right
we both know know it's better if we just let it go
so let's have

one last kiss
one last touch
one last tender moment between us
one last dance
to out first song
while pretending there's nothing wrong
let's stay here for a while and
cherish every moment we're in denial
we both know it's better if we just let it go

every time i try to take a stand at all
i see your face again and i fall
in the middle of the night there's the scent of a rose
the smell of your perfume i suppose
but we can't change the way we feel inside
and every try at love never turns out right
we both know it's better if we just let it go
so let's have

one last kiss
one last touch
one last tender moment between us
one last dance
to our first song
while pretending there's nothing wrong
let's stay here for a while and
cherish every moment we're in denial
we both know
it's better if we just let it go

baby if we met each other under a different sky
maybe then things would be much better between you and i
we could always hold on to this one special thing we share
but it would be too much for us to bear
so let's have

one last kiss
one last touch
one last tender moment between us
one last dance
to our first song
while pretending there's nothing wrong
let's stay here for a while and
cherish every moment we're in denial
we both know
it's better if we just let it go

we both know
it's better if we just let it go

this song i dedicate to all taufik fans

11:06 am
ilovedjason

yesterday i went to skool to see taufik..haiz..so charming..his charming smile had its own way to capture a girl's heart..awww..he sang one last..words can't describe how i felt when he sang it..aww..met shahera..a classmate when i was in p1..haha..she and her friend sat wif me and anne..kite macam the groupies at a rock concert..haha..giler2..but had a lot of fun yesterday..taufik looked dashing..haha..big word sia mal..muahaha..went off to orchard and reached there at around 1510..and that was early..as usual su had reached earlier and dee and tash was late..by half an hour..so then we walked to far east to eat at magic wok..i didn't want to eat..but since i was there..makan je lah..then we walked around far east..saw so many shoes that i wanted to buy..hmm..soon..haiz..and then this dee and tash was looking at some accessories at this make-shift stall..i was admiring the sandwiches at subway when i heard a loud BANG..! i turned and saw a plank of wood that was holding the accessories that dee and tash was looking at had fall down..all the displayed items was lying on the floor and everyone near the stall had their eyes on dee, tash and the stall..and u wanna noe what su and i did? we sat down at a nearby bench and enjoyed the show..haha..su couldn't stop laughing and i was trying my best not to laugh..haha..after that we went to meet tisa at at the entrance of lucky plaza..kesian tisa..she had the flu..we walked to heeren to take some neos..on the way there we saw the 2 tallest men on earth..so cool..they towered over us..i literally had to crane my neck up juz to look at their faces..su, being her giler self, wanted to take pics of on the guys..so she asked the guy and we took the pic wif him..i swear if ain and ham was there to take a pic with him..their shoulders will be at his waist..the guys are SO TALL..tash said that they have giant syndrome..haha..i'll post the pic sooon..if i noe how..so then we took pics at heeren..and then we decided to go to esplanade..we took a bus there and and got off at suntec.haiz..decided to juz stick to suntec..we walked around and went to some rooftop garden..so fun..we watched the bright blue sky slowly changed to the romantice night sky..so cool..and of course there were some couples romancing there..we sat on the floor and talked and gossip..after that we got back..went back home..haiz..read for awhile..and then slept..didn't use the comp last night..
FB later and i can't wait..FOC meeting and i can't wait..tmr's monday and i can't wait..

10:46 am
ilovedjason

Friday, February 04, 2005

yessa!! its finally friday..weekend is here!! juz got back from grocery shopping wif mummy..NTUC was so packed..tmr going to skool to meet taufik..again..so excited..wonder wat he's gonna do there..then on sunday there is a SPFB FOC meeting..can't wait for that either..and on monday..going sentosa wif my classmates..so very excited..we'll be having so much fun..muahahaha..

10:08 pm
ilovedjason

Wednesday, February 02, 2005

haiz..so sleepy now..and why not? my class started at 8 this morning..i don't mind classes at 8..its just the time to go home is not fixed..like juz now..stoopid CAD presentation was extended to 1830..fish sia..and the f*cking presentation was only for 5 mins..FISH!!!!! i really hope i don't take CAD or BTM next year..fish modules..and tmr..going skool juz for ESS..and then me and anne are going orchard [insya'allah] to shop for sentosa..haha..the reason we are going for ESS is because that we LOVE the module so much..ESS stands for effective speaking skills..after tmr i can enjoy my hols..saturday going skool to meet taufik again..haiz..can't wait..then sunday got FB..and FB FOC meeting..woohoo!! so excited for this weekend..and then monday comes and sentosa here we come..haha..im still feeling a li'l pissed from juz now's CAD..i wanted to throw the chair to the computer screen..but then..i calmed myself down..after that everything was a breeze..laughing and cracking up because of something stoopid..haha..im sleepy too..very sleepy..i tink im gonna sleep ah..

9:42 pm
ilovedjason

Tuesday, February 01, 2005

urgh! im so bored right now..no one's really online..yani not here..i told him that i'll be back.and he left for good..wat sia..nvm..will ham be online?? hmm..im listening to taufik's backup against the wall..nice..i like his non-SI songs..but i love let's stay together..ooh ooh ooh..he makes my heart go ooh ooh ooh..my left arm is covered with rashes..some allergic reaction to something..i tink its the mee rebus i ate juz now..haiz..i already can't eat seafood..sian sia..tmr got btm presentation based on the mini project..shldn't've done the condo..so much to do sia..maybe this thursday and friday no skool because my skool is having its open house then..hmm..i wanna meet possible future peeps of sp..but nvm..maybe during the registration can..juz now watched manhunt on starworld..FUYO!! there was this one guy..he had washboard abs that can really wash clothes..yum!! haha..his six pack was really really defined..but too bad he got eliminated..lets talk abt my pissy emotions..haiz..im trying my best to get over him..i hope i succeed before i fall more..so hey..in my upcoming posts..i hope to be more positive and less negative emo..haha..ciao..there's class at 8 tmr.. :(

11:30 pm
ilovedjason

u guys noe wat?? i forgot to talk abt floorball yesterday..haha..had a lot of fun during drills..muahaha..me, sal and eunice went a li'l crazy..laughing and laughing..dunno why ah..and then came the game..haiz..i can't believe i fell..on both knees..haiz..there was some scrape..and my trackpants that was already ribbed has become more ribbed..woohoo!! i created ribbed trackpants..so that was nothing..falling is okay..but..i got hit by the goddamned floorball 4 TIMES!! at least two of those hits made impressions on my skin..the impressions of the holes of the ball can be clearly seen..and then the bruise will settle..haiz..i juz hope that my knees will be okay..important sia..important for running u noe..and yesterday night i watched raise your voice..starring hilary duff [urgh!] and oliver james..aww..he's so cute..can sing..can play guitar..one last thing..to the guy whom i had a crush on..i wished that i could've told u my feelings..and i had hoped we could've tried it out..ciao

1:36 am
ilovedjason